every obstacle is a stepping stone to success

2012-01-28T22:40:00.005+08:00

Okay, for sure... No one reads this blog anymore.

But I won't close it, why close it? I mean, all your hard work and true deep inner thoughts have been poured into this site... It'll be a pity to close it don't you think? Anyway, as I launch myself into this spiralling self monologue, i just remembered how this blog was my documentation of life during my lower sec years. My trials tribulations, anger, disappointments, sadness, happiest moments were all just poured into this site that was barely enought to contain the overwhelming magnitude of my life's happenings. I know it sounds as if I have lived some sort of fantastic, world renowned life with so my h juicy news is but the matter if fact remains that I am just an ordinary person. The only difference is how I choose to view what I've done how big or small still lies entirely in my hands.

I would consider myself fortunate for all the blessings that god says so generous bestowed into and on my life. I have parents who love me (unconditionally unless I turn to be gay which then I'm not so sure - not saying that I am btw), I live in a nice little home with a roof overly head and I even have the fortune of being able to have a maid to assist in domestic work. I have money to shop for things that I like and I am able to go on holidays overseas. I have a pretty good education and... I could go on! Unfortunately, with this seemingly blessed and blissful life, comes with it it's own set of problems... The stress that I experience is tremendous. I feel unhappy, pressured by societal and parental expectations and competition in school is crazy. But then I guess that's the price one has to pay if he wishes to live in a cosmopolitan metropolis that is bustling and hustling like where i am in Singapore. Life in the fast lane always comes down to competition, who owns the biggest cars, who lives in the biggest and most aesthetically built house, which district of town you live in. City life, with all it's glitz and glamour may not seem as attractive when you start living in it. You could visualize it as if you are running. On a treadmill. As you progress, some invisible fore just starts increasing the speed and the incline of the treadmill so much so that you can't tak wit that you either collapse and die or exhaustion or you fly off the treadmill. In the end, you injure yourself and those funny thing is, wait for it... YOU REALISE YOU HAVEN'T GOTTEN ANYWHERE. I'm not saying that you won't get anywhere in life. Many people find a fantastic MATERIAL life in the city, but more often than not, you will find that their spiritual and emotional life is often lacking, if not destitue and deprived. Entirely twisted morals of lies and deceit and infidelity and abuse abounds. people often appear unfirnedly and uonhappy. it is did difficult to put yourself to "good" use. Okay what I am about to say next is very confusing ( at least it was for me at first ) but try to bare with me. A little chat I has with my father recently made me REALISE how important it is for me to actually stop what I am doing periodically take a good look at what I am doing, reflect hard and think about why I am doing the things i am doing. It revealed that at least for me, it seemed as though I am stuck in a system that is unappreciative of me, takes me for granted and just basically can do without me. This is what I mean by "putting yourself to good use" most of the time you will find people living in big cities part of big companies and many times, only the people with big titles of shareholders or CEO will be those that make a difference in these companies. The rest are just replaceable. That's wha I feel I am sometimes in this city. REPLACEABLE. It sucks and is the absolute worse feeling that anyone can or should endure. I want to do something meaningful in my life, I want to be positive change in this world. I want to matter in this world. When I am gone I want to have left behind a legacy, I want to be remembered, I want to have made a difference in people s lives I want to missed. I want to know that when I am gone, I want to have been someone unique who has contributed in my own right such that I am both technically replaceable yet forever irreplaceable. I wantbtonknow that when I leave, some thing or someone would never be able to function as before. Please differentiate and excercise discernment. By saying tha they will never be able to function as when I was there, doesn't mean that they are disabled, crippled in some way or another. Essentially, it means that my contributions are something only I can do no one else can replicate it in any way possible.

How does the above all relate to my current life? Well, im in an education system that seems like the treadmill I was talking about earlier. And from how I see it, i will probably go to some university and tak esome course, get some job and work and work and work and work. Till its time to retire and just fill time until it's time to say goodbye where I will leave and just become another person who has left the world. Looking at that, i don't think I can say that I had done anything meaningful in life if I were to go down that path.

But no, this does not mean I am succumbing to this fate. I am comstantly tryin to find my purpose in life, doing things that matter... Hopefully, tides will change and I will be free to be somebody in this world, and not be a nobody... Haha... It isn't as bleak as you think it is... There is hope, you just have to look for it

Cheers

Leonard

2011-04-22T23:15:00.002+08:00

i doubt anyone reads this page anymore.......

but in a way thats a good thing. i can pour all sorts of emotions here.... maybe one day, when this blog is forgotten, i will create a hate / dislike list with names explicitly written!!!! look out for that list on this page. anyway, SH1 life is crazy....... thought i better express all i want before i go crazy. anyway, it improves GP ><.

since no one visits, i dunno but i feel like publicizing all my deepest darkest secrets that i ahve been keeping since i was a child. yes its those kinds of secrets...... the ones that threaten to destroy your social image, your "normal" yet pretentious life..... sigh...... but then again i would feel free with no secrets except that i will get socially hounded and harrassed by some parochial bigoted people that think i will bow down to social conformity..... HEEEELLLLLOOOO, i will never do that. ever. period.

why is getting an oppurtunity in NJ so hard. i've been trying and trying but it seems as though the school nvr gives opportunities to people who try but give them to the ones who already have tons on their portfolio..... hello, where's the part where you give everyone an equal opportunity. at least there is still one more chance in getting into a research programme i really really want to get into........ doors and windows are closing fast...... will i make it???? even if it means me smashing through windows and breaking down walls, i will do WHATEVER it takes to reach my goal.... yes.... WHATEVER IT TAKES!!!

okay better sleep now.... gd nite!!! ^^

Cheers

Leonard

2010-11-26T17:55:00.002+08:00

RIGHT!

so i haven't touched my blog for like eons on end. well, that means there's tons to blog about.

First of, HCL, nope not hydrochloric acid, but higher chinese o levels.... yeah after 3 weeks of INTENSE preparations, it all came down to one day, which i could say was quite okay, really really want to pass!!!!!!

exams aside, my subject combi for next year is more or less set, bio, chem, math, econs with th 2 compulsory gp and pw.

moving on, ISL is taking up a bit of time off my holidays cuz there's kinda alot of prep work to do. anyway, thank god the prep work is almost over, had much doing it though and much invaluable knowledge was gained.....(haha so formal). so, will be leaving for vietnam this sunday for 8 day overseas community involvement.

besides ISL, i also have another commitment that i am bound to..... OGL (oh my.... all these abbreviations, all so confusing..... lol) taking december period, after which i have malay dance( for next year's SYF) thats something i have never been for...

oh and the icing on the cake, i'm moving, to somewhere so freaking far from school... at least until the new mrt is opened... so silly, its built already but they dont want to open it. urgh... for at least the next half year.

well, thats basically all of the updates, blog soon i hope!!!

cheers

leonard

2010-07-23T21:59:00.002+08:00

yo peeps

step up 3D's sng : CLUB CANT HANDLE ME.

is CATCHY. :)))))))))

and Street Dance is also coming out....

DANCE!!!!!!!!!!! yeeks! lol.

anyhow check that song out. its catchy.

on another note: william fitzsimmons songs are so inspirationally perplexingly, implicity, perspicaciously meaningful. in all enssence, its literature at its best. and combined with a suitable, delightful voice, MAGIC HAPPENS!!! take this for example from his song: mend your heart

She is like the water where I clean my baby

Floating from the front into the back to keep me

warm enough to cover me from getting chilly

Cool enough to hide me from the heat

She is like a splinter that I caught in my toe

running from the dog that chases me

sharp enough to teach a lesson that I must learn

soft enough to never make me bleed

And I will find you there

And I will mend your heart

And I will find you there

And I will mend your heart

She is like a cigarette inside an ashtray

Nothing but a fire sets her free

Filling up my lungs until my body needs her

holding on so I can never breathe

She is like a gravestone sitting in a church yard

Crooked from the ground in which she sleeps

Whispering our name until I go to meet her

Underneath the ground she finds her peace

And I will find you there

And I will mend your heart

And I will find you there

And I will mend... your heart

i mean which artist in recent years has ever come up with such beautiful lyrics. the generic songs nowadays either contain one the following which ruins the entire song: vulgarities, rapping, beat boxing or just sexually innuendo. which either used gratuitously or inappropriately at the absolute worse possible places. i mean, vulgarities aside, the songa that are coming up as 'no.1' are shallow superficial and plain meaningless. Music is an art form don't make it fart form that pollutes our years and much less our minds.

anyhow, on the note of subjects, my GPA is stagnating. apparently, the damn chinese is dragging me down to the lurch and not to mention human geography as well as man and ideas. althouh some subjects can be counted as the students ineptness to that particular field others are just the teachers fault. i mean come on, with the entire cohort getting c's? that spells T-E-A-C-H-E-R-S-F-A-U-L-T to me.

on a lighter note. i found CCA!!! and one that actually is reasonable.

cheers

leonard

2010-06-25T21:28:00.002+08:00

hi everyone

back from the holidays which were splendid besides the fact that someone's secret came out of the closet. quite confused about it though because if i tell it would destroy, but if i don't tell it would be a pretense. and i hate pretense. if you know me well. the only exceptions are taboo, and blaff and charades and halloween and costume parties. but coming back to the point, evryone has their dirty laundry, their skeleton in the closet, and just when we think we have cleared all the skeletons from our closets, a fragment of a bone or two are bound to miss our sight. there are few in the world who can keep their closet locked up forever, but none can keep it spick and span.

speaking about games, life is a game, we are dealt the cards, if lucky we get a good hand by the grace of god, if not, then think of a way to make it work. nonetheless, we are to make the most of it. and even if we think we have gotten a bad hand, but we overcome a bigotry and look hard enough, there is always a possibility that amongst the straights, we see a flush.

alright enough preaching, so school starts in 2 days time and i have projects that are untouched a chinese comprehension that is yet to be done, and revision that is long overdue. so tata to heaven and hello to earth.

cheers

leonard

2010-06-09T10:15:00.003+08:00

how ya doing peeps!

its the holidays which explains my jubilance in the first sentence. anyway, did anyone realise that so many artists are copying lady gaga. trying to be as crazy, different, unique, weird to a certain extent as her.

so i was just wondering...

WHERE'S THE ORIGINALITY PEOPLE????

at least have the decency to come up with something to try to cover up that its a carbon copy.

But nooooooo, these people( christina aguilera and katy perry) copy it whole sale. more so for christina i should say though. and whats even more embarrasing is that its in the ablum in
her "come back" i dont think having a copied ablum makes much of an album in the first place.

anyway, have a happy holiday peeps!!!

cheers
leonard

2010-06-01T10:36:00.002+08:00

alright, so my new catch phrase " DO THE ROAR " (inspired by the boy in SHREK forever after) you might be asking why so late but i sorta had exams on the week before. anyway, that's beside the point. couple of funny moments in there, but overall the 3D effects had more of an impact on me than the movie itself. i genuinely disdain movies which turn from retarded and funny to one with solemn morals and cliche endings. on another i plan to watch SEX IN THE CITY 2 as well as Prince of Persia on my holiday overseas. yah i forgot to mention i am leaving this SATURDAY!!!

and yes i know you might be rejoicing yes leonard's leaving, i genuinely hope that some legitimate people would still say" aww, when you coming back. i'll miss you" nah..... like that will ever happen i'll bet that none of you actually miss your friends when you go on holiday or when they go on holiday. how do i know? cuz when you come back, you tend to be greeted by " hey! i didnt even know that you left!" followed by the customary and insincere " how was it?" when all you're thinking is, WHO CARES?

i really wonder whether i'll be lynched one day by explaining so explicitly societal flaws which a superfluous in our so called "affluent society". 'so called' is because there are millions of people who are starving while we indulge ourselves in incessant and exorbitant pleasures to accomplish our insatiable desires.

cheers

leonard

2010-05-28T12:58:00.004+08:00

okay, so today's the first official day of the HOLIDAYS. YEAH BABY!

its most definitely deserved after gruesomely taxing papers which i had to study for. and when i said study i mean studied into the grotesque wee hours of the morning.

on another note, i have GIVEN UP on asking anybody in NJ any more to go and watch a damn movie, its either i'm sick, i'm going out with my cousin, i'm studying, i have aristal, i'm not feeling it today. or what have you.

from now on its either secondary school or family, secondary school or family, secondary school or family. the only time i will ever go out with anybody in NJ will be when they used the class funds for dinner( since my money is in there already). :(

HAPPPY HOLLY HOLIDAYS PEEPS!

cheers

leonard

p.s CRYSTAL BOWERSOX should totally have won. Lee is a one dimensional singer with an inflexible range of songs that he can sing.

2010-05-27T23:05:00.002+08:00

i am confused or rather puzzeled

whether to go or not to go

to do or not to do

but when the time comes

the answer will show

so just let things flow

cheers

leonard

2010-05-21T19:45:00.003+08:00

metrosexual |ˌmetrōˈsek sh oōəl|nouna young, urban, heterosexual male with liberal political views, an interest in fashion, and a refined sense of taste.DERIVATIVESmetrosexuality |-ˌsek sh oōˈalitē| nounORIGIN from metro- + (homo)sexual.
Yes. thats the word.the word that has hiding itself in the dark. well if you feel that its an allusion to the term "coming out of the closet" then your probably one of those stereotypical people who think feminine males = GAY.correction.metrosexual just refers to a guy who has a great sense of style which often provokes wide spread JEALOUSY/ENVY. and its is this that leads them to the hasty conclusion that stylish men are gay. although i do concede to the fact that in many instances, fashionable guys are gay but then that wouldnt mean all of them. right?in any case, i do believe i am metrosexual just minus the interest in fashion. i not like some crazy maniacal shopaholics who absolutely are stripped of/ deprived of self discipline and have to shop every week( in some cases everyday). for LIBERAL political views. i think most would concur with me that i fulfill that criteria too well. and definitely refined sense of taste. period.
alright so for most who read this might find yourself thinking : himbo writing, himbo writing.
but i assure you( ppl who think the above) that the himbo/bimbo is sitting on the opposite end of the screen.
you.
cheersleonard

2010-05-14T20:44:00.002+08:00

alright

so its the brink of my assessments and i am here posting. well better make it a quick one. so what happened today was rather disappointing.

discussing on the topic of what subject combi we will be taking recently. well personally, i am not quite certain about certain subjects. but i know that math is more or less a must. chemistry is likely to be a candidate as well. i am not sure if i will be able to take bio though... speaking of which i am quite interested in taking the bio acceleration. its so interesting. i like bio. but today's results were soooooooo disappointing. i mean come on. a 15? its like 2 marks from A+. sooooooo annoyed. then came the lit essay. well lets just say, its not good at all. i mean some ppl even got a 20 when i got a 17. like WTH? anyway, its upon 25 for your info. and hari managed to lie again through his nose. iconic.

i have to get a 4.0 GPA. NEED.BADLY.TRULY.MADLY.DEEPLY.

and i found my flowers for algernon. and guess who had it???

finally boarding is coming to an end. last year's boarding seem way better than this year's boarding. call it sick-and-tired, but i doubt thats the reason. my English's deproving. at an alarming rate. someone save me. i'm starting to stutter. can't articulate properly. maybe some english tuition would help. or maybe its just because i am around so many scholars.( no offense)...

i wanna change school. BADLY. i can't stand some ppl in NJ. well most actually. so trivial, inane, mundane, UNHELPFUL***, and just plain BITCHY.

sighs...

cheers

leonard

Out in the garden where we planted the seeds

There is a tree that's old as me

Branches were sewn by the color of green

Ground had arose and passed its knees

By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top

I climbed the tree to see the world

When the gusts came around to blow me down

I held on as tightly as you held onto me

you once told me that life is about living.

in school, my teacher asked

what i wanted to do in life

i wanted to live

she quipped that i didn't understand the question

i understood that she didn't understand what life was

a little hope

goes up in smoke

just how it goes

goes without saying. solitaire.

even when hope is frail

it doesn't fail

even when luck seems to leave

do not grieve

we can still believe.

2010-04-23T21:31:00.004+08:00

just realized i haven't blogged in a long while, most likely due to boarding. in fact, one benefit out of boarding is that i managed not to use the computer for 5 days. which surprises me because i use the computer almost everyday.

anyway, this will be a bitch post.

i dont know why or what i did to this girl to make her on the brink of hating me. at the very most, it would be a sarcastic remark stating blatantly her flaws which is legitimate, considering she does the same to everybody else. if you were wondering, yes, its shamera. th irony of it all is that she thinks everyone is her friend. wow! blissful ignorance? i think not. she has no idea how many ppl think that she has changed since she first entered nj till now. and changed in the most drastically degrading way possible. she has no idea how many ppl hate her. well i shall leave this as that to leave it enigmatic. why? well its simply because i realised from a multiplicity of occurrences that once i said someone has been a bitch to me, that person turns up the next day being very nice to me. but once i have said something nice about that person, s/he turns up the next day and becomes a bitch. what's wrong with this world?

anyway, just wanted to enlighten someone on his/her stand in class.

but you know what the ironic thing is? i dont really care. i think this year, i have more friends than last year or if you want to put it in another way, i have fewer ppl who hate me. in fact thoe who really really hate( not counting those who are neutral or dislike me) me in class would be: xin xian, shu yih, shamera, and maybe cheng yang(i dont really know where he stands).

anyways, dont plan to make friends with most (and i emphasize most because there are one or at most 2 which are worth trying/attempting to befriend) of the 4 ppl listed above. i dont see how making friends with them would mean anything to me. they dont help me, they are disparaging towards me, they insinuate and hint artfully and the list is seemless. at best, i think casual aquaintances would be as far as i would want to be to them and them to me.

in other news, i got a shelling from my house master for not coming down for role call. out of all the options where this person could vent his anger he decides to vent it on not coming down for role call. its paradoxical to me because of 2 things. one that its preposterous that he decides to do as what i dictated above and two because it irks me. really irks me.

well it all started when i decided not to go for some leadership video which in retrospect was an utter waste of time from what i heard. so his argument which i will now deconstruct would be that he had to wait thirty five minutes for me to come down for roll call which i never did. he thought that i thought that he did not have work to do and could wait for me for eternity. so he was warranted to be angry and grumpy with me and ended of bellowing , and i qoute " i'll just mark you as absent." and hung up after that. OMG. how puerile, degrading and immature. hmm, come to think of it, it reminds me of my brother when he was 5 and didnt get his ice cream. well first of all, i thought there would not be any roll call because nobody went down for it. secondly, i already told someone to tell the person in charge that i was having a stomach ache and could not go to watch the movie and was truly penitent. so whats the big fuss all about?

then my LA teacher decided to give me one of her pep talks about "you are bright but you are wasting your potential". just that this time she added a dash of nonchalance to the recipe. she told me that "if you waste your potential just dont affect the other pupils who are doing that exercise seriously" sorry to burst your bubble ms soon but there was at least one group that wasn't serious. so that leaves 2 options: 1. yo are particularly picking on me without pointing out other people in the class. 2. you are blind even with your 4 eyes. either way i couldnt care less as to ans your qn ms soon, my attitude to your class in one word would be blase. well ms soon, to sum it up, i would love to hear your convoluted ramblings and threats but i just dont have the time. oh and did i mention that she even said that she would transfer me to the scholars class as a punishment!!!!! you really outdid yourself on that one ms soon. i knew you hated the scholars but that just topped it off. so again i apologize for that attitude in your class but i dont learn anything from your class if you havent realised.

cheers

leonard

2010-03-19T22:28:00.002+08:00

today marks the end of my holiday in effect, and signals the start of another insipid, mundane and monotonous term. let's pray for the best and prepare for the worst...

so what i did today????? well woke up pretty late. then went to the national museum of singapore for the quest for immortality exhibition with my brother. well, it was splendid, as my dad predicted. it had alot of information about ancient Egypt, hieroglyphics, etc, etc. and it was FREE. haha. yeah. sounds really cheapskate but hey when you get a free lunch, you eat it. and i know how to write my name in hieroglyphics!!! cool right????

anyways, met my mom at vivo to have lunch. at the queen and mangosteen which cost like @$#$%^&&^*^%#$%@$#%^

anyway, good nite, have to pack for BOARDING. URGH. BUMMER.

cheers

leonard

2010-03-14T21:47:00.002+08:00

hey all

just came back from the scrumptious sushi tei in PARAGON.... JEALOUS??

jkjk...

kay anyway, i was just here to say how amazing diner was. and how learning 4 languages is soooooo cool.

oh and just a heads up, i think i will going to join ballet classes......... like next term and then i will be quitting NJWD. i just dont think i am improving there. so if any dancers from there are still reading.... sorry but yeah.

the i think i may join shooting or smthg. i dunno yet? but i will continue dancing thats for sure... its how i express my feelings......... no one can take the joy of dancing from me.

cheers

leonard

2010-03-14T11:37:00.002+08:00

hey put up a new song already haha.... after eons

okay anyway, this song is amazingly nice!!!!!

i love it. its called save us all by jeff austin black, what a unique name to a nice song. okay that sounds realy superficial. i hate it how people in NJ are so superficial and act bimbotic just to gain attention. go to school with ridiculous hairstyles. yeah maybe the AA people in NJ may think its "nice" but have you ever considered what the people outside of school will think?

i know that i said we should not bother or be bothered by what other people say and think of us. but there was a sub clause in front of it where i also said that you should be yourself and nobody else. so i am NOT contradicting myself.... :DDDDDDDDD

going out to eat at BOTAK JONES today!!!! for lunch i mean. nice name right???? BOTAK .. haha the last time i got that hairstyle was ages ago. and i was laughed and mocked at. but hey, i have gotten used to all that already, i mean like since primary school. i was always to person to make fun of if you were bored and had nothing to do. my dad says thats why i am hard as a rock and never let anyone know my true feelings........ sigh........

on a brighter note, tonight i will, again, be going to sushi tei for dinner!!!!!! yay!!!!!

cheers

leonard

2010-03-13T12:55:00.004+08:00

well,,

here to update on what happened in american idol.....

apparently americans have gone BANANAS.

thats all i have to say. BONKERS. how could they have sent LILY SCOTT who is so unique with her 'A' game on since the start of the live performances???? TODDRICK who sang so well the week he was sent home. for the other 2 contestants well, i was rather disappointed with their performances. katheryn shouldnt have sang "i feel the earth move". it was just too boring.

and for alex lambert , well i do agree he has a unique tone, but trust me, once you(or at least i) listen to his songs a few times, i dont know why but i get annoyed by his voice, like it sounds whinny and needy. the same applies to james morrison, however , i appreciate the huskyness and 'whinniness' of james' voice in the songs he sings( aka "sore-throat" voice). call me prejudiced and jealous but i feel it is because he knows when to introduce it and critical parts of the song, whereas alex uses it the whole time and makes it sounds like he has a sore throat(in a bad way unlike james morrison.

so let me attempt to explain why america voted him out. the first week when he sang wonderful world it seemed as if he was just copying james morrison. originality much?

second week, he sang everybody knows. the first time i heard it ill admit i went wow! but when i heard it again and compared it to john legends original, i was less than enthusiastic about alex , his rendition seemed rushed and uncontrolled. so i fgured maybe it was because of the song that made me like his performance the first time around.

in the week he got cut, well i wasnt like particularly amazed/captured by his performance. in short ppl will forget him after a while and he seems like he would only make it half way through and sounds neither here or there. unlike michael lynche who really wow-ed me with the maxwell song" this woman's work".

something i would diagree with the judges would be that he DOES feel confident on stage making those funny faces and i think he does have sufficient experince, the only thing that is lacking is the star factor, which is either your born with it or not, like michael lynche, he has that star quality, the 'it. the same goes for lily scott, she may not have the best vocals, but she has a unique tone. the only diff between her and alex is that she also has that star factor that alex lacks. so she will be more likely to cut an album then alex lambert.

one song that i think would suit him would be "breakdown more" by eric hutchinson, i think it would sound sound quite nice.

so i am sorry to say that i wasnt exceptionally surprised that he went home but i do agree that he should have went home later in the game.

you can disagree. in fact you wouldnt be the first, my brother has already blatantly disapproved my opinion by arguing with me as usual.

there is just one thing left to say: if didi benami or crystal or sobhan goes home, im done with this season...

anyway, whats done is done.

cheers

leonard

2010-03-12T14:45:00.002+08:00

haha

hallelujah baby!!!!!!!!! -)'

interims are finally over!!!!! at least for the next 1 term. and the enjoyment would only last fro a week i guess, considering the yapping from my parents after getting back my results. i can so picture the scenarios in my head already. if its:

bad results: study harder next time and no TV during weekdays.

good results: get better results this is still not up to my expectations( not that its my business to fufill them for you anyways)

bad results with tuition: are you using the tuition properly, if not we can stop it you know!!

good results with tuition: umm.... get better results next time!

so from an economics perspective, its a never ending demand of good results, and from the way the supply's heading, resources are depleting like FAST!!!!! and global warming will soon follow!!! haha so no link.

anyway, enough about interims...... and here comes BOARDING!!!! like even from the name itself makes it sound horrendously annoying. try it!!! BOOOOOO-RRRREEEEEEEE- ING. oops i meant DING, yeah even the sound of OLD FOLKS HOME sounds better than boarding school! boarding sounds like a place where there check in but no check out. yeah,,,, inferential skills ppl..... inferential skills......

going to sleep now, have a nice holiday ppl!!!

and i have no dea how many ppl read this blog but i presume its like none!!! or maybe there are stalkers out there!! haha. yeah right......

cheers

leonard

2010-03-02T20:58:00.002+08:00

hellooooooo people

have no idea why i am blogging right now. considering the huge freaking workload. and not to meention that the stupid thingy(parlimentary visit) stole precious time away from me. tomoroow there is also chem practical. pls pls i hope i do well for that.

now, lets play wordbubble....... guess the word in my head. guessed it???? of course not. its soooooo random. anw its bitchbrace. yeah. sorta created that on the spot. *3 snaps in a Z formation* haha

totally got that from katty perry. she totally made my day( although it was kinda long time ago) by standing up to KARA DIOGUARDI. she was getting way over her head. and i especially abhorred how she had to belittle bikini girl as if she was insecure and get back at bikini girl in the finals. WHAT A BITCH....

anyway, got to go now. very busy.

econs essay, tidy up geog essay, revision for ass wk.

argh!!!!!!

cheers

leonard

2010-02-11T23:08:00.002+08:00

i dunno whats the deal with the chem teacher but it seems to me she bears a grudge against me. which is actually fine with me coz i couldnt care less about what she says, AS LONG AS SHE CAN TEACH CHEMISTRY RELATIVELY WELL. in fact i couldnt care less about what the ppl in NJ think of me. well at least until my friends come to NJ.

had extra econs lesson. i think econs is difficult at first but concepts will be easier to grasp once the teacher goes through in depth with you.

just had reunion dinner. was quite interesting, considering that there was quite a lot of sarcasm and some pots of laughter here and there. some points broguht up during during discussion about NJ:

1. how sucky some IP students in NJ can be. as well as generalizations where they came from.

2. on the other hand how nice some scholars can be.

3. how polluted the air is in nj al thanks to the construction.

4. how old and dilapidated the schools facilities are + how small the school is

another thing we talked about was my cousins MEDICINE course. haha got some insights about what the curriculum in NUS is. for medicine that is. but i still do not know whether i should pursue medcine as my career. i definitely know i do not want to be scientist cooped up in a lab staring and straining into microscopes and spend god-knows-how-long in a small lab feeling all claustrophobic and stuff. definitely not my thing.

tomorrow's CNY, haha. finally a holiday. Praise the lord. i am soooooooo tired. Going back to nan hua to see my friends(real friends). maybe going out to eat lunch. haha.

tata

cheers

leonard

2010-02-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

shouldnt be blogging now, but suddenly had the urge to. well physics test was a total screw up today. thanks goes out to 2 of my supposedly better friends in the schl. shant name names. you know who you are. oh and this is not bitching behind your backs cuz i didnt say i have forgiven you have i?

maybe i was just deluding myself all this while. maybe i have no friends at all in this damn-ed schl. no on worthy at least. besides my cousin that is. the only sane one in the schl.

and let me correct myself if some of you have some preconcieved notion of what i like. i like weird, as in towards unique or a little bizzare, but not insanity. had quite enough of that already. thank you very much.

LA was well boring as usual...

thats pretty much it. chao~

cheers

leonard

2010-02-06T22:48:00.001+08:00

its the weekend finally......

went to watch SMU's indancity ytdy. didnt really fancy it. the one most provoking was the one entitled urban delve. it was intriguing almost to the point of being bizzare.

anyways CNY is around the corner will be getting of the country. i am just praying and praying for global warming to come and eat this place alive... haha so malevolent... anyways after which i will scram form this country.....

yeah. sounds sad and bad but hey!!!!!! that ryhmes.... okay so no link...

got tons of hmwk to do so better buger of/ piss off now...

cheers

leonard

2010-01-30T18:40:00.003+08:00

just realised my blog is dead...

so heres a quickie to revive it.

schools been well quite good so far. tiring but okay. at least better than last year. the teachers are quite alright as of now. finally one month is gone. just realised that my cousin is the same school as me. and whats up with people asking, is he better looking than you? is he taller than you? what you want me to hook you up with him? sure JUST SAY THE WORD. but most probably the answer would be a resounding and unequivocal NO. well at least for now. i dont support the whole BF/GF thingy at this pont in time if you get what i'm saying.

and the ex dance vice hair is appealing through dance... haha... said hiis and biies and that was about it. very few nan hua dancers were there. in fact almost none.

although i am getting along better with my class. i think( i hope i am not being delusional). but i am starting to lose contact with other classes. call me crazy but yeah. my school life is a total bore, just into the classroom and back home. praying the holidays come soon...

speaking of which, CNY is around the corner. maybe be going to malaysia for reunion. not confirmed yet. but it has been a good 4 years since i have seen them. in fact one of my cousins is now in england, scotland to be exact.

and talking about the whole migrating thingy. i am DEFINTELY moving out of this country after my studies. i really cannot stand the weather sometimes, the people who are so unwilling to accept sarcastic humour, the stress of just living.

for christ's sake, we should work to live not live to work. thinking about my future, i have many choices just hope i choose one that makes me happy, thats all i want. happy, i dont need to be filthy rich and live in a ginormous mansion or have billions of dollars in my bank account. i just want to live pleasantly with a reasonable amount of money, not excessive. i have had enough of excessive. thank you very much. excessive stress, excessive workload, excessive events excessive worries excessive nagging, excessive expectations. almost everything is superfluously gratuitous.

anyway, this years physical eductaion( in terms of PE lessons and dance PT) has been extremely demanding..... extreeeeemely demanding. i am worn out more by that than by dance. urgh.

on a lighter note, chinese lessons is more enjoyable, at least for now, the teacher is quite okay. i dont really connect with her though...

cheers

leonard

2010-01-08T14:51:00.002+08:00

i should find someplace where i can find solace in one day. hopefully soon.

“Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination encirles the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand.”- Albert Einstein

the once former highly acclaimed and respected education in this country now seems to me like a coagulated derision, a diluted form of its former self, since the preconceived notion where

"not learning something from books or firm/ "tangible"/concrete sources" = "an anathema/ a blasphemy to the meaning/essence of education" took roots into our modern and purportedly affluent society. learning outside of the box has now been deemed useless and in some cases harmful to education. and although this educational system says that it is embracing learning outside the classroom, the only thing i see learning outside the classroom is literal: like physical in the field or going on field-trips to historical places that actually having nothing to do with the curriculum. now i am not saying that extra learning should be taught inside the classroom, but shouldn't the things in the curriculum be the one spearheading this rather than whats not in the curriculum. however, it seems now that whats in the curriculum however, must all be taught inside the classroom through books. for your information, that is not what it means to learn outside the classroom. what it means is to find alternative mediums to learn through through rather than the conventional textbook style something that uses imagination,ingnites imagination rather than on using memory power. and although i agree that analytical skills/critical thinking skills/etc are needed for learning outside the classroom and are used right now which is a step forward. they are being used inside class and tuned to become conventional . now the skills themselves may be or may not be learned inside or outside the class however applying these skills should be based on experinces outside the classroom. hence the age falls into place (ie primary school to mid secndary school developing these skills and from then on outside the classroom) now this isnot to say that all learning and experinces should be and must be done outside the class but a step or two would be greatly beneficial. some include going overseas to study and not just for one or 2 days or a few people but the whole cohord. this may seem crazy and impossible as there are too many people to take care of. but if you think about it, arent we already taking the risk by coming to school everyday? insnt the same for a teacher taking care of 30 students here rather than somewhere else. yes the risk will be higher outside rather than in school. but in upper secondary( because thats when you start applying these skills- refer to the above lines if you missed out) dont you think the students should start taking responsibility and not be treated like little children where everything could be potentially fatal. and although there are these risks, the students have to responsible one day and not be forever be hiding between their mother's apron strings... so it is a calculated risk. and although the things you are supposed to learn and where you are supposed to learn may be more difficult to plan and it will take a longer time to learn. but you will learn it better and you will learn it not because of the information you need for the exam but but because you learned it from experience, something unconventional and it will most certainly stay with you. the different environments you go to for learning will also help with life skills that sometimes may prove more important than book skills some point in your life. but looking at the current situation, it doesnt seem like it will ever change. better be getting back to books then...

cheers

leonard

p.s this was just to shed some light to the educational system situation not only in this country but in many others as well.

2010-01-01T22:32:00.005+08:00

have you ever watched dexter? not the cartoon, but dexter morgan, the csi investigator? well not exactly, hes actually a blood splatter expert. if you havent go watch it, it'll even improve your english in a way, how you express your ideas, etc etc.

anyways, i have learnt something and as in the show, i will reveal it. i like dexter morgan have an addiction.( for those who have watched the series, no i am not a murderer.) lets just leave it as enigmatic as it is. for now. but i am trying very hard to overcome this addiction. and this addiction is common yet uncommon because it is linked.... somehow.... to another addiction. this one an even darker secret which i am trying to "change ". so as to earse it. well that was quite alot revealed about me, and it lifts mountains of my chest because even though i am not lying, i am actually not telling you exactly what it is. but hey, i am not lying. thats good enough for me. and it IS/ WILL BE (not a suggestion but a statement) enough for you.

moving on, i now know why/ think i now why i dislike "it"(although i cant really pin point what it is. all i know is that its something inside, something which makes me feel uncheerful, uninspired, in a nutshell, unhappy. i think its because things in my life are too certain, too mundane, might i say, in a sense that is. everyday, i just know that my life will be, for the next few years at least, waking up, having information that i amnot particularly fond of thrashed into my head, and come home, felling all sombre and lethargic waiting in insipid anticipation for a festering new day. if you cant understand that, never mind.

i think what i need in my life is a a everlasting flame, something that will keep burning till the end of my life, screw that, end of time. something i can look forward to every morning and not be absolutely certain of, something mysterious yet lucid and certain to a certain extent. that sounds complx but if you think about it, its not that complex.

which leads me to my new year's resolution. i will now no longer be what everybody wants me to be, needs to me to be even. i will be what i am and no one will stop me. i wont be totally outrageous and say all kinds of ridiculous stuff but i will say whats one my mind, and if that means being blunt than so be it. the mask has grown too heavy proven too much of a burden to carry and now, i shall be true to myself and be what i am. i am unique, i know that and i will try to make my goals as clear as possible, make my life as clear and simple yet indepth and interesting as possible. and i will try to explore in as mch as possible. cuz hey you only have so long to live. which leads me to the first label of the year :Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter

and those who matter don't mind

wow, i feel eating ice-cream again,

tata.

cheers

leonard

p.s happy new year.

2009-12-30T21:21:00.003+08:00

somethings bugging me.

not about to discuss it anyways. somethings must remain private.

just wondering do you ever feel that your mind runs wild sometimes. uncontrolled, "free associating". thinking of the numerous possibilities in life that may occur. or rather fantasizing. well your not alone. its something i just realized. i mean like you do this so often that you dont even realize it. thinking about absurd stuff. like what happens of i become a chef in future.... can i become the next jamie oliver.... will i work in a classy restaurant..... or what happens if i become a teacher.... oh like that ever happen. i think i will murder all my students.... then again.....then maybe i can be a dancer!!! well i i dont think i would be that good..... then some mainstream job... nothing very fancy just something i can be happy with....

on another note, i am so praying that next years bio, chinese, geog, history teachers be better than this years... puhlease....

anyways this holiday seems to be the most fruitful one. learned basic french and learned how to scuba dive!!!

Más, de tu corazón más,

de tu emoción más,

y de tu cuerpo más,

yo te daré lo que me das.

De tu alma más,

deja todo atrás.

Mi amor de ti

yo quiero más, más, más.

No quiero estar a tu espera

quiero tenerte a mi lado

tu sabes quien eres

cheers

leonard

2009-12-28T12:35:00.003+08:00

came back from my vacation. totally and absolutely did not look forward to coming back. anyway, cant change reality, just gotta adapt, AGAIN. i am getting kinda tiried of all this crap of shitty school stuff and stupid rat races. like my dad said whats the point of having such an idiotic school system where everything is in class, sitting and sittig absorbing and absorbing without learning the important stuff. and dot give me the out-of-the-classroom-learning kinda bullshit. cuz none of it isout of the classs. none of it is out of the box. interesting and singapore educational system are just 2 terms that do not complement each other. and dont you dare sit behind your computer screen preaching and judging me. cuz in your heart you have exactly the same sentiment as me. all you are doing is mooching around without the clue of how you are just wasting your childhood away. anyway enough of this nonsense and back to the so called "reality".

cheers

leonard

2009-11-29T19:17:00.002+08:00

happy.

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything

Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free

I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
just can’t let go
just trying to play my role
slowly disappear

But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces
different place
Get me out of here

I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
my feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So when it turns that I can see???
This rope??
Victim??
Don’t say anything
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.

the lyrics to Leona Lewis' happy. this song is at the top of my playlist. it was really ironic that this song is entiled happy when it connotes sadness. if you watched the video you would be fooled into believing that the protagonist was happy when she was actually going for her friends wedding... the friend who had gotten the man she fancied. it was a beautiful story. and how hard it was for her to actually bring about a smile on her face, when all she was doing was covering her deepest angst, hate, fear, disappointments and sadness. from what i got from it, the chracter was unhappy and safe, so she went for a relation and it turned out to hurt her. but she didnt care because she wanted to be HAPPY, even for the briefest of moments. so she continues on her search knowing that in her seach for happiness she will encounter unhappiness.

cheers
leonard

2009-11-28T21:05:00.003+08:00

hey everyone!

bet my blog's soooooo dead. anyways, i am away on holiday hahaha! away from suburbia, away from stress!!! actually no coz i still got holiday hmwk.sigh.

just arrived at my destination. very tired.... going to bed soon. dont think that i'll will wake up anytime soon tomorrow. maybe 12??? hehe. going to get me beauty sleep. that sounds so himbotic!!! but no i am NOT a himbo. not yet at least.

bb

cheers
leonard

2009-11-01T16:48:00.003+08:00

kay i was just wrapping up the last post just now. anyway, i went to OBS this week from monday till friday.... a few things changed. besides the superficial things like skin colour, and apparent state of awareness, i had a change in perspectives and learnt about not irritating ppl as much( i hope). will elaborate another time. right now i am gonna hit the sack. i have sinus now and i seriously dont want to catch something just b4 my holidays... oh and the results are out tomorrow. umm the exam results i mean. yeah. so just praying they turn out good.

cheers

leonard

ps. i put in a few more songs. well actually 3 but i suddenly had this brainwave to put them in so here they are. enjoy

2009-10-25T13:30:00.003+08:00

hey all

watched my sisters keeper last last saturday.... it was so touiching.......... and as those ppl i was with
(esp big mouthed hari) would have told you, i welled up just i a little...... fine you get me buckets.... i cried buckets. but if you watched the movie, you would too. and for those ppl who apparently have no brain. ppl do cry amd its okay to cry. it allows you to release your sadness and feelings in those little droplets of salt water. and after the calmer, a sense of relief overcomes the pain, sadness, melancholy. anyways thats all for now folks...

cheers

leonard

2009-10-23T20:37:00.002+08:00

hey peeps

EMTs are finally over. this is the first year after a long while where i didnt really study like mad for the so called "exams". i mean like when everybody was blindly mugging away without realising that the most MAJOR one has already come and gone.... yes it was the second interims not this last assessment week. tomorrow's there's dance... and its at 10a.m... then on sunday, i think i am going to follow my mom to east coast in the morning while she's jogging, ill be at starbucks, sipping a 5-star caramel frap. like the idea???

and tomorrow there is a class outing..... i dont think alot of ppl will go considering that it was sooo last minute.... and after my exams, i thought i could relaz but then there is OBS...... URGH... the nerve of some ppl. ohohoh... and there is going to a 201 gathering i hope??? dont let me down plssssss. and you know about the exams, i really dont wanna know my marks.... esp for bio... its atrocious... THANKS ALOT MR YONG DING LI!! youre stone-cold jokes really did come in handy in the test..... and geog....... i am still confused about the rocks and their compositions..... argh..... dont wanna think abt it any more.... well better go know... i have to get ready for that 5 day trauma... unless a miracle occurs and it somehow becomes a wonderful experience. but at its current status. it stands at 0/10.. well anybody knows where to get a camping bag... or a haversack....

cheers

leonard

2009-10-05T16:48:00.002+08:00

nothing much to say actually, my mother sent this to me.

BEING A MOTHER...

After 17 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to

take another woman out to dinner and a movie. She

said, 'I love you, but I know this other woman loves

you and would love to spend some time with you.'

 * * *

The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit

was my MOTHER, who has been alone for 20 years,

but the demands of my work and my two boys had

made it possible to visit her only occasionally.

* * *

That night I called to invite her to go out for

dinner and a movie.

* * *

'What's wrong, aren't you well,' she asked?

* * *

My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a

late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign

of bad news.

* * *

'I thought it would be pleasant to spend some

time with you,' I responded. 'Just the two of us.'

She thought about it for a moment, and then said,

'I would like that very much.'

* * *

That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick

 her up I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her

house, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous

about our date. She waited in the door. She had curled her hair and was wearing the

dress that she had worn to celebrate her last

birthday on November 19th.

* * *

She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an

angel's. 'I told my friends that I was going to go

out with my son, and they were impressed,' she said,

as she got into that new white van. 'They can't wait to hear about our date'.

 * * *

 We went to a restaurant that, although not

elegant, was very nice and cozy. My mother took my

arm as if she were the First Lady. After we sat

down, I had to read the menu. Her eyes could only

read large print. Half way through the entries, I

lifted my eyes and saw Mom sitting there staring at

me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips. 'It was I

who used to have to read the menu when you were

small,' she said. 'Then it's time that you relax and

let me return the favor,' I responded.

* * *

During the dinner, we had an agreeable

conversation- -nothing extraordinary but catching up

on recent events of each other's life. We talked so

much that we missed the movie.

* * *

 As we arrived at her house later, she said, 'I'll

go out with you again, but only if you let me invite

you.' I agreed.

* * *

'How was your dinner date ?' asked my wife when I

got home.     'Very nice. Much more so than I could have imagined,'     I answered.

    * * *

 A few days later, my mother died of a massive

heart attack. It happened so suddenly that I didn't

have a chance to do anything for her.     * * *

Some time later, I received an envelope with a

copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place

mother and I had dined. An attached note said: 'I

 paid this bill in advance. I wasn't sure that I

could be there; but nevertheless, I paid for two

 plates - one for you and the other for your wife.

You will never know what that night meant for me. I

love you, son.'

* * *

At that moment, I understood the importance of

saying in time: 'I LOVE YOU' and to give our loved

ones the time that they deserve. Nothing in life is

 more important than your family. Give them the time

 they deserve, because these things cannot be put off

till 'some other time.'

  * * *

 Somebody said it takes about six weeks to get back

  to normal after you've had a baby.... somebody

 doesn't know that once you're a mother,

'normal' is history.

 * * *

 Somebody said you learn how to be a mother by

   instinct. somebody never took a three-year-old shopping.

  * * *

   Somebody said being a mother is boring ....

  somebody never rode in a car driven by a teenager with a driver's permit.

   * * *

  Somebody said if you're a 'good' mother,

  your child will 'turn out good'....

somebody thinks a child comes with

directions and a guarantee.

  * * *

  Somebody said you don't need an education to be a

   mother.... somebody never helped a fourth grader

   with his math.

 * * *

    Somebody said you can't love the second child as

  much as you love the first .... somebody doesn't

    have two children.

 * * *

   Somebody said the hardest part of being a mother

  is labor and delivery...

  somebody never watched her 'baby' get on the bus

 for the first day of kindergarten .

  or on a plane headed for military 'boot camp.'

* * *

  Somebody said a mother can stop worrying after her

    child gets married....somebody doesn't know that

  marriage adds a new son or daughter-in-law to a

   mother's heartstrings.

 * * *

   Somebody said a mother's job is done when her last

  child leaves home..somebody never had

  grandchildren.

  * * *

   Somebody said your mother knows you love her, so

    you don't need to tell her.... somebody isn't a

  mother.

    * * *

 Pass this along to all the 'mothers' in your life

   and to everyone who ever had a mother. This isn't

  just about being a mother; it's about appreciating

the people in your life while you have them....no

   matter who that person is.

2009-10-04T16:34:00.000+08:00

i wen to the hairdresser yesterday and it opened and refreshed my mind to a whole perspective and refreshed to the meaning of life and living.

this isnt the normal "oh what a touching story" kind of story. in fact some parts would seem to certain people annoying. for starters, the moment i stepped into the room, i was greeted with what seemed like a wailing siren alarming everybody of imminent danger. you guessed it, a baby crying from his haircut. you all might be laughing or wondering why i brought this up. but it suddenly occured to me that evryone has phobia-s no matter what age. you could be on your death bed scarred to hell by the thought of what is going to happen after you depart or in this case an ignorant baby unaware of what seems to you are immature and childish behaviour expected from a baby. but no, we all have fears, no matter how much we try to deny or face them they will still exist if not blatantly shown, then deep in the abyss of your heart unknown to you but it still EXISTS.

then a man carrying another baby, who to me seemed like she was around the same age suddenly spoke, "dont cry, its alright." my flabber was gasted at that point when i noticed how mature she was for her age, consoling whom i presume to be her younger brother, but the age difference is merely noticeable. But more importantly i sat on my seat stoning for a good 10 minutes as i had this amazing yet weird ephihany, that in life, you cannot survive through everything just by your lonely self, afterall, no one is a one-man island. but besides that i remembered and recollected those that were importantly to, those that would be the siblings, brothers and sisters, guardians and parents, would would console me in times of sadness and melancholy and support me come what may. also, the recent way i have acted to them due to the stress and unhappiness brought about when i decided to channel my care to those who do not reciprocate. and in the end this care turned to hate, angst and unhappiness which made those i did care about to start to loathe me. but, i have learned my lesson oh too well. and there is practically nothing in this world where you will learn something without a lesson, so no, my priorities are set right. but what i cant believe and understand is why i took a whole 3 months to learn that i was the ignorant fool to be thinking that i could get people who are cold and indiscrete to care for me. even a simple-minded person would have begged to differ in the 1st month or 2 but 3 terms??? i mean i have really been too oblivious to the plight around me that was not unfolding but unfolding the moment school started but i was too give up on people who had already given up but now, its time to patch up loose ends and start afresh.

so, moving on, i then noticed something else, the parents, who were oh-so-patiently telling the baby everything was going to be fine - my parents who did so when i was little. they and my brother are those who know me best although not inside out but they do know alot much more than any friends i have ever had. and they will be the one to help me in my deepest of worst times, or at least more likely than any friend will. and i must be thankful that my family is still together although there are conflicts that occur regularly, however, i feel that it is better than a broken family, where either parents are divorced or separated. and this could be the reason why many people seem as though that they hate their family and dont want to be a part of it, but instead what they are actually wishing for is for glue which will stick their family pieces back together to be whole again.

cheers

leonard

2009-10-02T19:38:00.005+08:00

do you sometimes realise that people tend towards using vulgarities like you know what without any rhyme or reason. more so because they want to say it like its a form of interjection???

well apparently they will gain the attention of servile , while they are oblivious that others think that they are complete menials whose english or (chinese so to speak) abilities are lacking and inferior so they think that using vulgarities will suffice. anyways thats not my main point....

moving on

SPIRE is really a pain in the ass.

and on another note, (i dont care if *uhmm* sees) this but i was wondering do you feel at times that being all nicey and friendly to a person or group of ppl *hints insinuatively and artfully*

but in the end they act more like complete arsholes compared to those whom you dont treat as well. so i just like to warn *uhm or should i say uhmmsssss* that my patience is running thin if you dont start treating me right my tp is going to blow and trust me you wont like it. and if you/ you people think that i am annoying then i am afraid that i am not mr PERFECT. i have UNDENIABLY changed by being less asshole like but if you dont encourage this change, the old bitched up monster is coming right back home darlings... so no, i DO hope that you/ ya'll read this coz i am a a hair strand away from blowing my top. and what the FCUK do you mean by "i think you are going to scream when you hear this".( or something on the same line to the same extent) i you dont want to be in my group then say so or take action and ask mr yong to change your group. i dont need to be in your group. you aint the smartest of ppl i know and just because your what huh?? accelerated math and one of the outstanding pupils( teah your out-standing alright). come on if you want to say it in my face then do so and not TRY to tell xin yun when you obviously know that i am listening. cause i am sick of your act-nice attitude but being a bitch at the same time. say it blantantly in my face, cause either way, you just saprked a reaction. yes a chemical reaction and it involves fire. and if you mess with fire, YOU WILL GET BURNED. that IS a THREAT. and the rest of you, dont think that just because i am sitting behind this com screen bitching means that i am oh-so-afraid of confronting you. DONT PUSH IT. like this is the uptempth time i have said that. if you dint wan this to happen you could have told me in the face AMICABLY. i'm not afraid to hurt peoples feelings if it is morally right. heck those that say it makes you unpopular. if yall could just give credit, just a tenny weeny bit of credit of improvement, then maybe, just maybe the improvement could be faster. but apparently no... you want perfecto. AS IF YOU ARE PERFECT YOURSELVES. YOU FCUKING BASTARDS. and now you got me flared up and fuming. thanks a hell lot. and i dont noramlly use the f word but under this circumstance that is the most appropriate word to use.( and if you have the least bit of minds to think for yourselves then maybe you would know it does not contradict the first portion of this post.) maybe its high time you reflect on YOURSELVES instead of me RELECTING ALL THE TIME SINCE THE FIRST TERM where i also agree full heartedly that i was being a complete problematic shit hole. but now after i have changed ( no matter how small, you refuse to change your mindsets which is utterly disgusting, revolting and degrading of YOUR incorrigible, uncongenial SELVES.)

sorry to those who werent meant to hear it.

2009-09-26T14:18:00.005+08:00

current status: rushing SPIRE

shouldnt be blogging now, but anyway,

the immaculate misconception.

this has got something to do with the previous post about secrets. we all like to burry away. but from experience, we find that it is almost impossible to accomplish such a tall order. instead, we pretend that the buried "item" does not exist and pray in vain that it will divert attention from the "item" to ourselves. how, you may ask. well its all a matter of how skilled the "do-er" is. if he manages to divert attention to himself or away from himself by being loud and annoying or quite and introverted, then maybe, only maybe will people not notice the discrepancy. i think i have said enough.

self preservation has its limitations and in this case self destruction is its wrath. but most of us SEEM yearning to risk nemesis by such a choice.

and MIXPOD is sooooooooooooooooooooo ANNOYING. BITCH!! someone pls fix that son of a bitch its disfunctioning. BITCH!! tried till i am so exasperated. hrrrrrrrrrrr.

2009-09-19T18:30:00.003+08:00

hey you all might think its weird that i am posting 2wice in a day but i really have to do this before i forget.

although you also might think that its just another post of "leonard's lame lectures" but before crossing this page out, do take at least a peek at this post.

this topic is on SELF PRESEVERVATION. you all would have realised that i do not link anyone. no its not because i do not have friends or i am lazy or i that i am cynical and hate every one on earth. have you ever thought thats its because of self preservation??? you feel that the world is always judging you. every single thing you do or not do, say or not say comes with a certain connotation. so its better not to say or do anything???

self preservation. well, it explains why some people act the way the act. and i emphasize some, in this case means most cuz everybody whether you like it or not have secrets, they may be secrets of love, secrets of hate, secrets of shameful past, of even screts of current situations.

why do you think some people are so quiet and cold, or on the other hand so loud and obnoxious. its all because of secrets. people are quiet in fear that their secrets will slip their tongue.to distant themselves from the herd. people are loud and obnoxious to keep up the image that they are tough, strong, impreganble, unfaltering, cruel, and annoying and INDIFFERENT TO WHAT OTHERS THINK. either way, they do so to prevent the herd from entering your life, to keep the intruders heart so as to speak. they are afraid that the secrets will cause them to lose their friends, cause them to become an outcast. so before they can be hurt and considered as a outcast, they make themselves an outcast. everyone has feelings, whether they show it or not. although they might act as if they do not but they do. in the end after removing the skin, all the hair, all the flesh, we all have a heart. and this heart can be broken. more easily than you think. a little scratch no matter how small, could cause a permanant scar on it. and like all scars, it serves as a painful reminder of the past. and this reminder may ignite hatred to whoever the scar accompanies. and although some might say that hate does not last forever and time will heal the wound. it is true to a certain extent, but everytime you are reminded of the scar , the hate will come back, no matter how much you try to contain the hate, its burns even faster than widefire. in short, time is a great healer but lousy beautician.

ever read the book, entitled "witches" by road dahl??? every thing in the book is a brief literature summary of the flaws in the world, just that in fact the witches do not represent a small population but almost everyone on earth. we all are introverts in a sense as we do not expose every avenue of ourselves to everyone. before walking out of the door of your house, we will unconciously wear a mask to protect our TRUE IDENTITIES.

and sooner or later, secrets(maybe not all but most) will somehow or rather find themselves to light. you cant hold on to them forever and cage them up. and you it is really really hard to take the stress of the situation when it comes to light that some people actually take their lives because of this. the only thing you can do is find help and prepare yourself . and this help comes in a form of belief, in a form of faith, in a form of hope, in a form of love. they're your friends. your true blue friends. even your family are couted as friends as well. and all you can do is to pray that your preparation will manage to overcome the stress.

you might ask how i know all this. but i have learnt something out of the countless painful experinces, that it acts as a wiper that cleanses your lenses and allows to know that not everybody is as innocent, not as friendly, not always a true friend, as they might have looked like. on the other hand, it allows you to note the people who will be there to aid you in times of need. i too like everyone has secrets, and has experinced the pain of rejection and not being accepted as normal( in every sense of the word). but no, afer saying all of this, i will not tell all my secrets to the world. because sometimes, you just feel that the only way to prevent yourself and those you love from being hurt , is just to astray yourself from them...

2009-09-19T12:29:00.002+08:00

wanted to start of with an apology... well not really cuz its sorta more like a wrong judgement.

so I think that MR YONG isnt such a bad teacher after all. he knows his stuff. probably its cuz i didnt want to go to consultation cuz i dont know what questions to ask and also thought that i would get more confused. but when i stayed back yesterday to ask him some questions, there was more to him then his lame jokes. he does seem like a really nice teacher and although i hate to admit it i think i have been much of a bitch myself to the teachers that are nice to me and many other people.... stop laughing!!!! for physics i dont go for consultantion because i think i know it well at least well enogh, so i dont think i have any questins in common. it isnt funny you bastards... ms liu is also is a nice teacher, its just that i dont like the subject and nobody, absolutely nobody can change that except me. maybe i dont hate the subject after all, maybe its because of the assignments that make the subject annoying in the sense like essay where i find myself repesting what i write. well at leas the structure. it all seems so dull and mundane not to mention time consuming.i dont know..... well maybe it also because the grades are also sucky for HCL. trying to change already.

anyways this week has been super busy trying tot meet deadlines. for physics i didnt even do one of the acceleration graphs. sigh... its been so hectic. and i guess the only way to make at least myself laugh even if the only means was to tell stupid jokes. fine i may be a little bizzare cuz i like to laugh at my jokes... somehow i feel that laughing has a certain characteristic that makes people happy at times. and if you want to laugh, LAUGH. its after all the best medicine.

and i couldnt care less if you actually thought that i was seeking attention. i aint that sort of person. if you do, then you dont know me. and you know zhao lin and hari seem like the only 2 people laughing, and maybe they know thats my stlye of jokes. or maybe its because i am a lousy joke-teller. and zhao lin actually knows ow to be freaking sarcastic!!! learnt that while waiting to present the IH presentation, where he blantantly and bluntly told me my flaws. i like that type of honesty, but not to a point that it the person is trying to attack me rather than telling me my flaws. zhao lin has somehow a technique that can acheive the former, he knows the exact time, place and situation to tell a person his/her flaws and request correction. thats a quality of a true friend. although not saying that he is but it is one of the qualitites of a true friend. honestly speaking i can t remember when the last time i had one TRUE BLUE FRIEND...

well on frm the sob story, i have gotten sick of the marks i get for IH. it always a b or b+ i have always ried to improve but it always seems in vain the max i would increase is one or 2 marks...

right gtg

cheers

leonard

2009-09-13T10:35:00.000+08:00

haha. i just realised that the previous post was my 111 post.

and although i know most of you will not believe it, i have barely done anything besides starting on phy. no LA no HCL no IH no nothing. i dont know why so many ppl have the idea that i mug alot??? actually i only do so if i really need too. and i mean really. if not the tv sometimes pulls me away. okay. i mean whats the point with HCL??? i hate it and with the conversation with someone, i shant keep telling myself that i like something if i dont. yes sometimes it works with certain subjects sometimes( probably coz the teacher sucks that makes you hate it and not good) but others like in this case HCL, i have practically no intention anymore in brainwashing/hypnotising the wrong idea into my head cuz it may work at first but then reality kicks in. hard.

for the former where i said that it will work with certain subjects, this is an example.in the first semester, i hated chemistry and physics. they both seeemed so hard, but after i sought help, and and a alittle hard work, i and my tutor mananged to clear up the spagetti mess MS REGINA LIM made. chemistry therefore seemed a little more fun, although chemistry is seriously not easily especially not for a secondary 3 sudent learning JC1 chemistry. bio on the other hand(although JC as well) was enjoyable after i had gotten used to ms lee's teaching. the crux and secret behind how to get used to ms lee: copy what she says fast and think ! not saying that bio is easy, in fact i failed the first test this term in bio by an outstanding 2/10( cuz i didnt seek help from my amazing tutor,she has really been a god-send, and instead decided to like in ignorance thanks to my current sucky bio teacher), but i think that bio is interesting unlike how some ppl would put it.

i feel that learning has many factors involved, firstly it depends to a certain extent on what you are capable and born to do. then it depends on how your brain is developed from young, when you reach a tertiary level like JC work, it now depends on the teacher to pass the knowledge to you. although this is not like the main factor, it is an important factor. i mean jsut think, if you have no help whatsoever from tuition, the teacher is one of the only sources you can rely on assuming that you have no other sources. but another important avenue for learning is your learning environment(specifically your classmates and schoolmates). although you can say to yourself like how i did that you can just sheild out the negativities of your enemies influence, this only works as i have discovered if you have a large pool of friends in that class. and this seems only attainable in a large class of about 40 and no the curent 23 in nj. this does affect your academics so there are 2 solutions: 1. make nice with them(like they say if you cant beat them, join them) 2.adapt and learn to be desensitized to them. or a little of both which is to me i think so far the best solution.

now, if you had been at all paying attention, you would realise that i have mentioned 2wice about adaptation. okay, so as you all know we great apes are capable of evolving and adapting to our surroundings but there is a catch in learning about this. for example, HCL, even thoguh you can have an excellent teacher, if your chinese isnt good, you must really really do intensive hardcore studies into it to really overcome the "natural inborn you-are-not-born-to-do-this-subject stigma" which i am not ready to sacrifice at this point in time for chinese FYI. on the other hand, if you have that "inborn you-are-born-to-do-this-subject blessing" from the heavens, lets just say you have not been receiving very good education and everything seems blur to you. if you get engage a good mentor and work hard enough you will be able to like this subject cuz its what you were "born-with". or you can adapt if the foundations are not that bad and if the teacher is also not that bad( unlike the other case where your foundation is still not that bad but you really got a bad teaher) not saying that i totally agree with this theory but i do think to a certain extent there is a certain truth.

well, i wrote this post after having a conversation last night and decided not to hide anymore.

2009-09-12T13:09:00.002+08:00

AMORPHIC METAMORPHIC

didnt they all say learning's heavenly sanctuary?
didnt they all say it would be fun?
didnt they all say it would be enriching?
didnt they all say lifelong memories?

while almost all unfulfied,
one broke through
lifelong traumatizing memories that is.

thou shall never realize
the pertinence of learning
not in competition,
but in experimentation.
not in taking
but in sharing
not in corrupt
but in innocence
not in hypocrisy
but in sincerity

need i remind you the stress we are going through.
round and round like a mary-go-round
a vicious cycle
when it stops no one knows
and no one shall ever know.

since when did learning morphasize
from hell's worst nightmare
to heavens worst nightmare?

how i wish
an angel come from the heavens above
right the wrong
rid the wrongs
relinquishing our souls afresh

2009-09-10T19:13:00.000+08:00

had a little prompting from someone to blog

i mean seriously i havent found the mood to study.... get very worried and anxious. i think i am goin to screw the stupid performance ask. arghhh what the heck physics is 2 modular credits anyways should focus on maths and science.. hahahaha. serously got nothing to blog. over the past few days. oh ohohohohoh did i mention that i went to starbucks on sunday and stayed there like for 3-4 hours. yeah almost froze to death. anyways, gtg got to start . at least i find comfort when others also tell me they have not started.

cheers
leonard

2009-09-05T10:41:00.001+08:00

hey

had swimming yty and passed my gold! yes!

check out of boarding today. well i have to say its good to be back.

chao!

cheers

leonard

2009-09-03T14:07:00.004+08:00

hey peeps

teachers day was awkward... well kinda...

started off the day firstly with one of the outstanding few who hilariously managed to wear the aerius house t instead of the P.E attire. anyways it continued into a ludicrous series of events starting from the stupid aces day exercise where it was just torturous to even watch the stupidity of the exercise where we look like programmed ass holes working to a damn shity track like some old folks doing stupid movements over and over again.

then was the celebration, where apparently i heard that one councilor told western dance that its dance was better . but as you know many people are blind and deluded, living in their scaringly demented ignorance . so you know the outcome, it was pure, organic and genuine CRAP. and btw, it is not becoz i am oh so over wester dance, or like the item they put up during the concert, but what i am put off by is what is how annoyingly exasperating it is to know how prejudiced and tainted some people's mindsets can get, that it even manages to go to a point where it seems that they become bizzarely judgemental and have absolutely absurd jurisdiction to not be able to tell the difference between a decent and horribly revolting dance. oh my mistake, you cant dance NOR can you think straight so its probably not your fault.( rolls eyes) FYI, i almost puked during the dance and the rest of the so called "skit" was atrociously boring and insipid. and what with the artic-cold jokes dude???? at least have some decency not to use someone elses jokes and proclaim it to be your own. and oh to show my dismay, guess what i did, i stood up before he said we could leave haha.. in his face.

then went back to nan hua. the symphonic band was suprisingly good! dance was also interesting with the improvements compared to the last time i saw them. talked to mrs tan and talked with chun yun for a while as i had to rush off to my primary school where i had a nice chat with mrs bala, my fanastic primary 6 teacher.- she still looked as fit as a fiddle. and not to mention meeting with many of my REAL friends( tianli looked the same as she did before, desiree was also the same, practically everyone looked the same- not to mention having the same attitude, thank the lord for that!) sigh... dont ask, you know the reason. oh today we had the lovely e broadcast, it was so cool making the music!!! yall should try it someday. then had the class outing at clarke quay ate at billy bombers. hmph!!!!! the gst and the stupid service charge hurt my pocket, BIG TIME!

AND what can i expect from a certain someone who just had to poke her big fugly bulbous nose into other people's business and spoil my night!!! guess it is no surprise from you, laddie. it was just palpitating in my heart to just ask her too shut her disfigured mouth and scrape some chilli on it to inflame her already inflamed mouth(i.e. her lips looked like a baboons butt ) so she will know not to be such a bitch!hah, then she will have " voluptuous" lips.

then came back to boarding, see ya folks. till nxt time. cheers leonard

2009-08-26T19:37:00.003+08:00

finally managed to squeeze some time to do some blogging after the avalanche of tests giving me blow after blow.

visting nan hua today with 2 others really allowed me to compare the impression i once had on nj to the impression i have now. slowly and steadily is the impression i once had diminshing into the depths of the deepest trenches. and there shall it lay, till time and tide slowly erode it away. i havent felt so free, elated, happy, joyful and welcomed in a long time.

but its funny how fast life and time just snatches these rare little moments rudely and impudently away, just when all your problems, hate, fear, despise, regret seem to disappear.

the intangible quality of both "magnificent feats" shall never be understood. but we must be thankfully at least such joy does exist and may chance you by momentarily, opening your eyes and widening your perspective.

at the same time, the visit showed me just how i have changed for the worst, becoming snobbish and patronizing. but the conversation i had with someone else taught me 2 things:

1. when you think you at the top of it all and that you are the best of the best, you are sadly mistaken, there is no such thing as best

2.there are exceptions to the phrase" a leopard never changes its spots". even of you think all doors have closed on you, think again there are always doors or even gateways to something bigger and brighter.

heres a very special message to a special someone:

you may think you are very smart with all your games and tricks, manipulating people just to get to me. but you are forgetting something, YOU WILL NEVER GET TO ME. i disdain people like you, destitute and lustful for something, something sinful and tainted. i dont noramlly condescend, but i really cant help myself feeling like this towards you. you may think you have everything in place , ready to take me down, BUT i repeat YOU WILL NEVER, NEVER GET TO ME. and in the unlikely event you do, no worry, i have a contingency

2009-08-16T23:42:00.004+08:00

last day of the week

starting of a another gruesome and torturous week

a masquerade, a charade

whatever you may call it.

pretentious and sincere

substantial yet superficial

what might you be?

dont tell me.

its written all over your face.

its exhaled in every breath you take,

every sigh you make.

sulking during birthdays

and dampening the mood

is what you do best

having fun?

an appalling indifference

shrouding your existence

like the "witches"

they may say

luring innocuos victims

into your lair

but i aint no fool

try as you might

so shall you fail

havent you not thought

the joke not on me

but on you

i have too admit

behind every person

does lie a dormant

green eyed monster

but why this hatred

delivered to your doorstep

only for you

and no one else

time to take the mask off

and reveal behind each smile

a conniving, malicious, vile

intention in disguise.

i have laid all my bricks

and could only

build the bridge half way

how you lay yours

i cannot coerce

its your decision

your choice

but before the whistle blows,

and judegment made

the consequences, the repercussions, the implications

think of them all

between building a bridge and a wall.

coldest regards

a "friend"

2009-08-13T17:27:00.002+08:00

hi everyone

guess what?? today is everybody most important date, becoz its my birthday and thus it is THE most IMPORTANT date in the entire calender, besides holidays i mean.

anyways thanks a million to those people hu sms me today wishing me well. and also thanks to the class whose purchase at island creamery got me a free scoop of ice-cream... haha. last but not least thanks to my dearest family who celebrated my birthday at kenny rogers roasters and that lovely bengawan solo fruit gateau cream cake.

haha whats funny was that the first present i got for moi birthday was a lovely PHYSICAL TRAINING EXCERCISE. yeah if you didnt sense it, there was sarcasm in it. anyways my essay grasped a 21/30. not bad for a last minute research. but sadly it showed and i couldnt get higher marks.

tish tosh

cheers

leonard

2009-07-30T16:05:00.003+08:00

i know i sound himbotically sperficial but hey i'm not.

anyways, realized i havent blogged for ages so i decided that it was time to do some blogging. starters, i have a dislaimer to make to those taht read my blog, if i have mentioned that you are/ were a bitch/bastard/a-hole. uhm...... its kinda hard to say this but there is a tiny miny minute possibilty that i MIGHT have changed my view on you, BUT then again i might have changed back. thats what you get for being over genuine.

right so during IBN yesterday, me, janani and carolyn had this nice little chat on ethics over lunch. as guess what, we cam e to the same conclusion, some people who are bastards cant change, like a leopard cant change its spot, but they can always where a overcoat to hide their true colours. the only problem is, it doesnt last, there are some slips sooner or later and thats where they get exposed. once bitten twice shy, you may say, then why do i find myself continuously and perpetually get conned by this son of a bitch or the same type of son of a bitch? coz they are everywhere and each of them have their own intentions and their own distinct method of conning people, the nicest of people arent the nicest people. get it straight and get it right.

on the other hand, all is not lost as there is a "cure" for these people . but trust me it aint pretty. just a little "bringing down to earth" would help. for example lets say ignoring their needs(not them) would be a perfect example.

talk next time. tish tosh

cheers

leonard

2009-07-03T22:02:00.003+08:00

hi peeps

HOORAY! HOORAY!
i'm your silver lining!

lolz

just joking, got that lyrics from the song "silver lining".

no seriously, ass week is over and there wont be any other major exam until end of year. lets start off by describing ass week. while as you all might know, i had to take the stupid interims with the majority coz i did not participate in ayg. the first paper was a bummer-hcl. i realize that i am getting more and more irked with the teacher, its as if she getting colder and colder.a-hole. speaking of which i havent finished her bloddy homework yet. but hey, its hcl. *hints artfully*

so moving on bio was another kiler. i mean what can you expect from lee shan shan. not that i hate her(i kinda atually feel she's okay) but she apparently felt that it was her moral obligation to make our minds explode instead of excercise.(yes, there is a fine line btwn the above 2). then came maths, which was kinda okay - i seriously gonna kill myself if i made careless mistake *crossess fingers*. chem was also okay but really had standard(thank god i mugged for it more) i have only one thing to say about the physics portion - absolute CATASTROPHY. then today was IH and MI. some people totally ticked me off today. apparently, some people had trouble understanding how to ask a person nicely to move aside.
both were alright. but in MI i kinda a few questions, fine... a lot.

argh, boarding is in 3 days and we also have this swimming programme. i am just wondering how that will turn out!

cheerio

leonard

2009-06-26T11:56:00.004+08:00

oh this is my 101th post haha!!

this is goin to be a short post

but

anyways

lets start off by saying that i wont be in ayg. sad:(

anyways there is always next time(e.g maybe YOG)

well it all started when i went on holiday to indonesia which apparently has the H1N1 virus.

so when i came back the VP asked if i had gone abroad to the affected countries. so the verdict came out and it was a thumbs down to participate.

oh btw if you were wondering why i sound quite happy.its becoz( those who want can highlight the blacked out portion.)

well lets just say the cheography wasnt one of those which i fancied. and i also have more time to revise. yay! :D

cheerio

leonard

2009-06-20T20:48:00.000+08:00

hiya everyone!
im back (unfortuantely) from my holiday:(

anyways the weather is sweltering hot and i wont tbe surprised if anyone collapses from heat stroke these days... global warming is taking its toll. i mean what the tempreture these days 33 minimum. and speaking of which i had this epiphany during the holidays. you know for me, in every situation, there are 2 ways of looking at it - either you look from the optimistic or pesssimistic point of view. lets give the classic example, when a glass is poured with water till its half way mark, how would you look at it. would you look at it as half full or as half empty. lets put it in context. suppose you are a group leader of a project. when you are given a piece of work from your teamates, it would definitely have flaws. but would you want to look at the piece of work and say that it is half heartedly done, or remind yourself that he or she did put in a certain amount of effort. another example, for instance you have this sum of money, lets say one million. would you think to yourself and say that it is a big sum of money or would you think that it is not enough. if you choose the latter, then sadly, your life would a contiuous relentless, not to mention futile search for the richest of richest. which if you were wondering does not exist in this world. and this way, your life would have no meaning , no goals, no values, all you would have would be an unrealistic goal filled with greed and selfishness as well as materialism. in the end, you would be left with nothing, and you would pass on not having done anything in your life. in effect, your life would be "wasted". and derfinitely, you would come to a certain point in your life, where you would think to yourself and ask, what am i doing with my life? an the answer to that question, woud be nothing, nothing at all.

for me, i would try to find a positivity in everything, howevr, there has to come to a point where where reality and practicality play apart. in the example cited earlier about global warming, i would say that we would have practically no chance of changing it instead of saying that there is a glimmer of hope. why you might ask. well, to be down to earth with you, lets just say that the world isnt changing, and this will indeed cause the downfall of the era of great apes, who were just too smart for their own good.

anyways, enough of pep talk!

gtg. see ya!

cheers

leonard

2009-06-01T21:59:00.002+08:00

hi everyone

its the holidays! well not really with all the truckloads of homework and projects and dance practises but i going away this friday!!!! haha for two weeks so see ya guys. urgh! but i just dread the thought of exams when i come back. so exasperating. oh and do ya wanna know what the funny thing is ??? i am sleeping early during the holidays, well not really early but at least earlier than not during the school days. haha, must recuperate from that rubbish dumped on me during the schooling days! still wish i can come and visit you guys in nh. promise that we will organize a class outing or chalet!!!! haha

anyways realized that i said a lot of haha s in this post. lolz

cheers
elonard

ps. i realize i am truckloads happier during the holidays than during the school days, probably cuz of the people i am with !! hehe! okay byes.

2009-05-16T20:16:00.002+08:00

hi everyone,

today we had the class outing. and i watched ANGELS AND DEMONS. everyone shld go and watch if possible coz it is really very captivating and it has an amazing storyline. if you have the chance watch it. its worth it. anyways its 2hours and 30mins.(estimated). anyways gtg and mug for IH and ?MI test see ya.

cheers
leonard

2009-05-04T16:49:00.002+08:00

cant you SHUT your GODDAMN MOUTH????

you are really getting on my nerves you know. critcizing all of my work while you laze and fool around not doing anything. it would be basic courtesy to at least acknowledge that i put in effort and not say "it is not enough you know got this wrong that wrong" if yours is sooooo perfect then do it yourself and let me see how many different ways i can chastise it. seriously, BACK OFF. oh and also if you happen to read this, pls keep to the appointment, me and cuong were waiting quite a long time until we got CHASED out by a teacher.... so pls be more considerate and not just think about your own progress, your own timing, youor own business, your own stuff. coz other people have their own timing. if you have a appointment with your tamil teacher, tell her that you have something on and not let us wait till the cows come home! it was so embarresing for cuong and especially for me coz i had to ask cuong to wait when he already wanted to go back to the hostel. and in the end you didnt come. what an unexpected ending.....

2009-05-01T11:53:00.004+08:00

hey yall

just updating went back to nan hua last week and met many old commaradaries.... anyways i was over ecstatic to hear that monday would be half day but the shock and disappointment came when i found out it was totally the wrong half of the day coz we are still having 3 damn periods of chinese........ argh.........

got nthn to blog so on a lighter note at least we have long holiday .. oh and i almost forgot, abt the swine flu ya, it sounds very serious rite that even the health minister said that there will definitely be deaths in singapore. doesnt sound too comforting does it...... on thursday during chemistry an announcement came and i thouhgt it was actually announcing that we could leave school but it turned out again that we just have to bring our thermometers everyday starting from monday.

omg i still have that busking thing to do and hari is gonna pester me for it AGAIN.

cheers
leonard

p.s apparently some people whom i dont want to read my blog are so heres a message " I DONT CARE" and if you think i am gonna change what i am gonna post think again. oh and reading discreetly and thinking " haha, leonard doesnt know i am reading"i s very smart of you then you are sadly and agonizingly mistaken coz i've known this for like since i gave the URL to UHMM........ so the joskes on you not me....... so heres a little song for you people.... listen to it and understand the lyrics.......

3 wisemen by JAMES BLUNT

She said to me, "Go steady on me.
Won't you tell me what the Wise Men said?
When they came down from Heaven,Smoked nine 'til seven,
All the shit that they could find,
But they couldn't escape from you,
Couldn't be free of you,
And now they know there's no way out,
And they're really sorry now for what they've done,
They were three Wise Men just trying to have some fun."

Look who's alone now,
It's not me. It's not me.
Those three Wise Men,
They've got a semi by the sea.
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?

Really sorry now,
They weren't to know.
They got caught up in your talent show,
With you pernickety little bastards in your fancy dress,
Who just judge each other and try to impress,
But they couldn't escape from you,
Couldn't be free of you,
And now they know there's no way out,
And they're really sorry now for what they've done,
They were three Wise Men just trying to have some fun.

Look who's alone now,
It's not me. It's not me.
Those three Wise Men,
They've got a semi by the sea.
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?

Look who's alone now,
It's not me. It's not me.
Those three Wise Men,
They've got a semi by the sea.
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Where are you now?

Got to ask youself the question,where are you now?
Got to ask youself the question,where are you now?

2009-04-17T21:17:00.002+08:00

A shower of meteorites perpatually pours down in a rain of fire turning the land into a burning inferno.

thats what i am feeling rite now . it as if the world has closed all its doors and turns its back on me leaving me in the awful horrific wreck with no one to turn to. although this downpours does get lighter at some point in time. the hope sems to be diminishing with the downpour intensfying evertime it seems to relax, shattering and destroying all hope of it ever getting better. they say that the end of tunnel has to appear sooner or later rite???? well to be honest, i have no idea what to believe in anymore, every time you are just so close to that something good happening, the downpour never fails to snatch that home away.

everyone for themselves they say. either you make it or break it . to be geniunely honest, my relationships with some people are slowly breaking away and those which are already far apart get farther everytime.i sick of this charade, of this absurd pretense where i try to be nice when no one even tries to acknowledge my effort. every single thaing i do seems to worsen everything. so you know what, since all of you think that this is bad, wwatch out for really bad coz i aint helping anyone anymore. you can plead there for help with your problems but from now i officially quit being MR NICE GUY. i dont care if you think that my nice isnt nice. take a hike, go fishing , do something just dont come and ask for me anything anymore. when i try to be nice and help all i get back when i need help is a cold shoulder, or shaken of with a shrug as if you coulnt care less. and what the point of apologizing when you still treat me as if you hate me or something . you havent seen the worst of me . but trust me, when i expose it , it wont be nice. i haev pissed you of and that was just a taste of it. if you want more just tell me and i can gladly accomodate that request. seriously. DONT PUSH IT!!!!!!!!! oh and since you already crossed it let the war begin...........

2009-04-10T15:50:00.002+08:00

heya guys

dont wanna thhink about the interims now. anyways can t belive ming li's teachers are so nice they gave her freakin high scores you know and my teachers marked freaking strictly as if they feel they lost their pride by giving us a few damn marks that we ought to get.................

so we got this damn dance exam which i am sure i am gonna fail... oh sorry i failed already....... urgh and the teacher is a bastard man i mean come on ... i was just telling kai xiang that i failed the dance exam and he asked oh sorry commanded me and kai xiang to do 100 push ups as if he bu shuang me or something you know... damn bitch.

oh and there is a girl in my class called pang xing xian and she is the biggest bimbo without the looks / bitch i have ever seen. shant mentioon what she said coz i dont want to infect or contaminate my blog with that sort of bitchyness......

oh and not that the rest of my clas is nice you know my class is like the worst assholely bitch class i have seen. i sriously think that the person who assigned me into that bitch class made a serious mistake. other classesss are so much more bonded and happy. in fact all except 1 or 2 freinds are from other classess. this shows you how ass holey my class is.......

sorry i have to lament and grumble but seriously my patience has a limit i am trying my best to be nice to you all although you all have that zi1 bai1 attitude

2009-03-29T20:07:00.002+08:00

OMG

i really really feel super depressed now coz got back most of interims and really really lousy and pathetic scores

math 1102:30/40(the only subject that was not too bad)

math 1101:22/40(made so many freakin careless mistakes)

english:25.5/50(well, the atmosphere was infectous, seriously i felt like sleeping)

chem and phy:36/60( so many freakin careless mistakes)

IH: havent got back yet hope its good. crossing fingers now

chinese : 21.5/62(utter disappointment cant believe i failed!!!!!! she really marked me too strictly)

wow didnt know i could reach such lows afetr seeing other peoples results, i think i am one of the not so good ones !!!!! hope some one can cheer me up...................

2009-03-23T11:58:00.002+08:00

haha

did not come to school today as i am down with flu and sore throat. recovering at the moment. whats the point of saying coz none of you care anyways....... jkjk. i know there are some, very few who do dso i shouldnt generalize.

kays on to my main point. so, i went back to nh on friday to see their AYG performance. its very coordinated much more so compared to njc combined one. not in a mood to blog shall go and take a nap now see ya later.

cheers

leonard

2009-03-13T21:09:00.003+08:00

hey guys

sorry for not blogging coz i was super busy with assessment week..... talking about it. today was science... well actually only chemistry and physics. it s the last day of the term and assessment week. school terms passes quickly if you are so preoccupied with things... especially with school. anws talking about school.... well i dont really have an idea on how to phrase this but this is one of the worst terms i had... i really hope it gets better. in terms of relations as well as academics(still alright). it practically sucks at the moment.. my only TRUE blue friends in class are hari and shamera( i think). other than that al my other friends are all in other classes. come to think of it since hari was also from my OG. there is like practically no one from my class that is like credible to be a good friend. miss nan hua tons......thought that a change would be fantabulous. guess it wasnt really as rollicking as i foresaw it to be. but as they say, we have to be versatile and adapt quickly to the environment before it adapts us.

coming back to assessment week... i am so sorry to anyone whom i may have insulted. its just that i am very pissed with a few certain people. and chemistry and physics were not that hard............ at least as much as i studies for. which is like the norm for common test in NH.

to anyone who wants to come in to NJ IP please think and think it over and over for like forever coz if you cant handle loads of crap from teachers whom expects you to secure the basics yourself while they teach in depth when in fact all of us do not really understand the basics so their efforts are actually quite in vain. however. thank the lord i have gotten tuition (at least for math) getting one for chemistry as well coz my current teacher is not the best fo teacher( i really hope she doent read that but hey a blog is where you post what you think. so even if you do i wouldnt give a RATS ASS to you think coz what i feel cannot be changed. so if you dont like what i say,....... you see that cross on the top of the screen..... yes that cross...... just click that MAGICAL cross and you'll fell much better./ i have been standing your rubbish for like eons so i couldnt care less...... time for me to dump some rubbish that i have taking in day in and day out from some certain particular people........ no wait, wouldnt that rubbish be continuosly dumped on others so i decide to throw and dispose of it into the trash bin and not onto others.........)( oh and just because you got 6 As in a levels does not mean that you should look down on me just because i cant understand certain concepts i chemistry.)

like liqing said, "i am so happy that i didnt go to nj" shes right to a certain extent.... i am quite tired of all this rubbish and nonsense. why cant life be fairer????? i went to NJ thinking that it would be a better place where i can concentrate more on particular subjects of my i interests......coz theres no O levels...... guess i was wrong again .... each time i move on to a new chapter of my life it s seems to be the opposite of of my hopes, wishes and dreams. they want us to concentrate on all subjects whether it is of interests or not. i mean who studies A level topics in sec3???? not that i am complaining but it seems to that instead of choosing what we want to study like in other IP schools and high schools, we have to take all subjects like in sec 1 and sec 2 which frankly speaking isnt working. i dont mind studying jc 1 topics but just the ones of my interest which the school should allow us to choose instead of just expecting us to do fantastic in subjects of interest an non interests. if it wasnt for the support my EX-class mates give me, i dont know if it would be as good or worst.

to DESIREE. if you even read m blog anymore. i dont think that this i ignoring you and you ignoring me is going anywhere. i am aware of my flaws but pls dont be so judgmental and scrutinize everything. if an apology is what you want, i can sincerely do so.

and to JANANI, i thought you were one of my better friends who should know better. but you are just like the rest arent you.....

well what can i say i was wrong about so many things.....,,,,, hope this nightmare will heal itself and evrything just return to the way it was . my life aint crumbling. i wont allow it. so the only way for this would be a solution. a remedy. anything that could point me in the direction that i should be heading fro to make my ife a tad bit more lively and cheerful. i have lost most sense of the word "HAPPY" moreover a happy life when you are all so tensed up and stressed up. my cheerful self is now a shadow me shrouded and trapped by expectaions of everyone including myself that is leaving stranded with few alternaives. but as i said when theres a will theres a way. i will be resilient and break free from my entrapment and fight my way through all obstacles...... in spite of the sacrifices that i make. i will rise up and out of the ashes when everyone has given up hope and turn their backs on me making me stronger and more resilent regaining my fromer self ,cheerful and happy.

as my signature statement goes" life is an occasion, rise up to it"..................

2009-03-07T11:10:00.003+08:00

yo people

anyways nothing to yo abt. Assessment nxt wk............. so exasperating with all that hmwk..... thank god the term is coming to an end............. the school corrupted my whole entire sleeping system. after coming home from school i have to take a one hour np to absorb the information overload than i will chiong my hmwk to around 11 to 12 almost EVERYDAY. i feel so lethargic. i am really sick and tired of all this continous bombardment......... think nan hua is so much less stressful. oh talking about nh. heard that there was a bomb. hahahahahahaha poor thing that they could only miss half an hour of lessons. thinking about lessons, its like my school ends at 5 eveyday make that 8 with dance. and do you know why???? coz they have too many cirriclms and extra "special cirriculum"(more like disaster cirricuum) to fit in a week with 2 days where lessons end at 5. and they are seriously lacking teachers to cater to the cohort. pity them as well coz sometimes they have to do make-up lessons with us as well. word of advice: DO not go for enrishment if you havent secured your basics. went fro IMCB and ha a hard time catching up. well gtg and mug and mug for assessment week.( i dont know why but although it is 10% of the module everyone is goin crazy over it as if it is exams.... coz they say it is the GPA for the semester. hello........... look at the bigger picture...... its 10% of the module..............not as if it is the entire module.......... in nh it is even less than the common test ............. i think.)

oh and i got back a few of my tests........

Bio: 17/20(i finally had a breakthrough what ms lee was saying)( oh and mr yong the trainee teacher is very good and patient)

LA: 21/25(summary test)(crap the highest was 22/25 and i somebody just pissed me off like he bu4 shuang3 or something that he has to feng3 ci4 me about not having confidence ..........asshole and if you were wondering it is not the person who got 22)

MI: 15/20(HOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY)( i am starting to like MI... actually, i have always been okay with MI.... so ironic/contradictory)

ps. HARI was so ecstatic about beating uuuhhhhmmmm(refer to the bu4 shuang3 person) in the bio test... so hilarious.

cheers

leonard

2009-02-22T21:40:00.003+08:00

hey peeps!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shouldnt be blogging now coz i have tons of homework pouring like rain that will never end...... just some quick updates........sometimes i do miss the times in nan hua coz we get to leave at 2.30 and that is damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn early although when i was in nanhua i considered that super late .... but know i know better........... bet in nanhua there is so much less homework and the lessons are not as difficult to comprehend compared to nj.

anyways, went for the A star IMCB attactment prog. that was damn fun and a good way to not come to school( thats is somthin good abt nj they give you loads of oppurtunities to skip school......... or should i say get more experince and build up the port folio.) but but but but but but but but but but but but i have loads of catching up to do and it does not look like it is going to be easy................. i will try my best though....

okay i gtg still got so much not done yet:

chem
bio
LA
physics
math(finishing)
MI( half way through its so hard to think about MI at times...........)
IH(i think i finished)

cheers
leonard

2009-02-03T14:31:00.003+08:00

this is so annoying!!!!!!!!!!

i really hate/abhor/loathe/disdain/despise/scorn at people(esp. teachers) who gives homework like nobody's business. what do they think we are??? robots???oh sorry, coz technically if i say that we are robots i think i would be referring everyone in the world are robots as apparently they do not need rest and can work non-stop. * senses sarcasm* and whats more exasperating is that i can assure you that they would not be able to finish marking they assigned (trust me i have observed long enough that this always happens.)in the the teachers will not give you any homework whatsoever. then as if re-enacting a secene from when the earth got hit by a meteorite with cataclysmic consequences and subsequently wiping out all the dinosaurs, we get lambasted with homework beyond your wildest imagination, or shld i say nightmare.and after burning mid night oil to finish the homework, they do not return us the assignments. so whats the point of giving us so much homework when it absoltely positive that you will not be able to accomplish marking it all??? lets just break down what is installed for us:

math- on top of textbook questions, there are still tutorial questions to be done,

chinese- one dreadful compo a week (btw 800 words or more)

science-group project presentations that must be done within 2 days

humanities- 2 projects assigned in one lesson

i shudder at the inconceivable thought of what is yet to come....

2009-01-29T19:35:00.002+08:00

hey people i have changed the song this is a peice from the movie THE PIANO its is entitled THE SACRIFICE. enjoy!!!!!

cheers

leonard

2009-01-28T16:56:00.003+08:00

oh just want to wish everybody a HAPPY NIU YEAR . oh and another thing i totally find man and ideas (a prelude to knowledge and inquiry ) boring but intriguing at the same time!!! now we are learning about EPISTEMOLOGY which is in the english dictionary PHLOSOPHY OF TRUTH KNOWLEDGE AND BELIEF which, trust me, is very difficult to learn. we also study we even have to learn about historical figures such as RENE DESCARTES(it is pronounced de-cart not des-cart-tes by the way-go check it out yourself)so it is all about questioning our thoughts and beliefs and knowledge about many things . especially those that cannot be proven like lets just say if there is or not a god which cannot be proven or if there are aliens or demons. it also questions our cultural beliefs such as if when we are coughing we are often told not to eat chicken as it would give phlegm. but how do we know that that is true??? so we seek our knowledge and belifs from these :cultural knowledge, science, or experince . though tough i think that this programme is not very difficult to master (thats only me).

2009-01-20T21:11:00.003+08:00

heya guys

anyways today was the second SCHOOLING day of NJC and come to think of it things are going pretty well considering that my class is NOT filled with jerk-offs once i come to know them. and amazingly the chinese teacher SEEMS quite nice actually. Just a random post coz i had nothing to do. oh and one more thing, i just took a dignostic test for chemistry today, and i cant believe i could make such a silly error or more like errors. well i guess it could be partially because i took DROWSY medicine this morning hence was not very aware at that time. met my math MENTOR today (i have no idea why they like to make simple things seem complicated ??? MENTOR actually sounds like we are studying in an assylum or something and we being the mentally challenged kids ... other things include calling the parade square a quadrangle?!?!?!? or maybe the crazy layout of the school which i can assure you that not one of you will be able to mounouver around unless you have been toured.but i guess you learn to adapt to it) and something i realised about JC is that you are pretty much on your own most of the time because sometimes you have classes in lecture theateres ,speaking of which NJ has 5,or just in your normal classrooms or in labs which are fortunately air-conditioned.(dont be jealous :XXXXXXXXXX). and what i mean by on your own is that our class always manages to be split up especially after assembly where you have to go the assignned locationon your own. i guess that is JC life where you have to learn how to be independent or get left behind i mena way way behind. it is interesting to see how the school gives you more freedom where your form teacher/personal MENTOR (gosh i hate that word) does not see you or guide you most of the time. and it is also nice to see that there are only 23 people in my class(18 for HCL).and also how they seperate the classess in such a way that not many classess are at the canteen a one point in time. but it is sometimes extremely annoying to shudder at the thought that almost half the class are filled with scholars from china and vietnam who seem to have niches here and therre and thus gets you thinking whether you are or will still be capable of attaining the 'A' that is rightfully yours or would it be snatched away by complete strangers whom are sometimes a nuisance in a sense that they could potentially be a bane instead of a boon . in a nutshell, its like more competition as if we dont have enough already........ i think you know what i mean.(that is the most amicable way i could have put that.)

anyways i gtg
cheers
leonard

2009-01-18T15:35:00.004+08:00

so terribly sorry that i havent blogged in such a long time . i know you guys must be dying to know what "life in NJC" is like .but however my computuer sort of crashed but everything isokay now for the time being. well i shant go flattering about everything that aint trueand come straight to the point. there is the good, the bad and the ugly

firstly i shall make all my complains.......i cant believe that school ends at 5 every monday and friday. secondly i still have to take humanities which now apparently comprises of even economics . thirdly cca can even stretch to 8 and even on sats and suns. oh and they even merged english with literature which is so annoying especially after i thought i was over and done with with literature !!!!!!!! fourthly they made it compulsory for everyone to board for at least one term a year. and they also introduced these new things called man and ideas and SPIRE . man and ideas is all about philosophy and stuff like that. SPIRE is all about research which i heard gives you ridiculous things like" does music affect the growth of plants...." last but certainly the worst one is my new class. everyone in my new class is so segregated . let me explain . firstly practically half of the class are anti social foreigners who basically stick to them selves except for one vietnamese guy who is sitting beside me who seems like a nice gug to be around. there is like only one friend from my orientation group who came into 304 with me. yah and ming li is not my class.... what i find really annoying and stupid is that after bonding with the orientation group they split us up after taht i mean like how exasperating is that . and i actually felt that my orientation group was decent like that. going back to my class there is one extremly vocal indian girl (i think from cedar girls school) who is really ticking me off. this is what happened: our class had to choose a house affiliate you know like a representative in sports . so there were two volunteers. before voting we had to ask them some questions so one of the question was why they thought we should vote for them so the vietnamese guy which i talking about just now started saying that he held leadership positions in his secondary school etc etc. then it was as if she was just itching to ask somethin regardless and had to interrrupt the vietnamese boy. so this was her preposterous question"WHICH SECONDARY SCHOOL DID YOU COME FROM" once i heard that i was diplomatic and euphimistic enough to say "THAT WAS IMPERTINENT TO THE MATTER" although the matter of fact was that i felt like giving her atight slap acroos her face for asking such a stupid and foolish question i even wondered how she got in ??? so she gave me face like she did not want to acknowledge me or she just dint bother. what i thought was that her ego had grown to big that the school was unable to accomodate her handicap/disability. i actually felt sorry for her coz she did not have the bsaic manners or courtesy not to intterupt someone while they were in teh middle of the speech. oh and there was this china person who made a sexist remark about boys being better than girls in some area or another(i had to ask someone to decipher what he said coz when he spoke in english it seemed as if he was speaking in an alien languageas it was inaudible). sometimes i really wondered if i was in the right school or not. anyways shoudnt jump to conclusions so i shall see what happens on monday. and i almost forgot on the last day of orientation, some imbicular SJI boys jumped out of the blue at the end and started singing sji cheers . i thought that they were reatarded/spatic for doing such an puerile act like that. i mean like i think they got their bearings wrong or something coz apparebtly they cant differentaiate NJ and SJI. if you want to sing sji cheers or do pub stunts for SJI go back to SJI then!!!! so to counter them, NJ had this SJI sucks cheers that was so funny that i almost laughed my ass off.

on with the good things then.frist and foremost i must say the orientation in NJ was hundred times better than that in nan hua. i liked the station games although i was soaking wet and also the showdown where we got wet again after throwing water bombs at each other. another thing is that we have recess 30 min and lunch that is one hour long. plus we also have free periods . besides this PE is twice a week and is 1 hour long each time. there are also a lot of slacking periods such as contact homeroom and guidance that is something like PC in nan hua. if you calculate everythin g up i think we have even shorther studying times than in nan hua !!! oh and we are allowed to wear ankle sock provided that tehy are white and trek shoes. last but not least is that we get to come to school before 8.30a.m .... cool right???? oh and on tuesdays and thursdays we are released ta 2 p/m . besides that everthing is fine

BTW there is one SJI boy that sounds uncomfortably close to that ARTHUR KOK (aka gay)in nan hua . shumin is in my class and we even made a joke that he was arthur kok's son.

cheers
leonard

2009-01-01T18:57:00.004+08:00

hello

firstly i would just like to say how immature those spammers on the tagboard are. infact i will not ever be acknowledging them again. anyways i arrived on the 23rd of december from my three week vacation. so i would just like to wish all of you out there a very happy new year.

cheers
leonard

P.s. its my first post of the year so take a look at my new 'cliche'

2008-12-03T12:01:00.003+08:00

hi people havent updated in a long while

so anyways i am leaving for my holiday today....

well actually it is tonight

so sad that i wont be able to come for the class bbq

and to believe that someone can say that she had repeated it so many times begs the question : did she inform everybody?????

cheers

leonard

2008-11-21T12:13:00.002+08:00

hi people

got to go so just very quickly

pls pls pls pls pls watch this lovely video

its so touching (the level of technicality for this dance cant be measured)

its the PAS DE DEUX (cheographed by desmond richardson who is one of the best cheographers in the world of ballet)

so pls take some time to watch this video

here is the URL:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Na157TiRaTo&feature=related

cheers

leonard

2008-11-18T15:51:00.002+08:00

hey guys

i'm sorry

but...

guess i wont be able to go to the class chalet after all ............

coz apparently someone gave me false information that the dates were on the 8-10 dec while in actual fact they were on the 16-18 dec..........

anyways never mind...........

cheers

leonard

2008-11-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

i changed the song

i like this song
.............................

like duh otherwise why do you think i put on my blog...........

oh ya by the way he is what chun yun calls a "pan-asian"(his father is japanese and his mother is a canadian....)

2008-11-14T14:56:00.003+08:00

2 can play that game.....

EXECUSSE ME!!!

who is the one going around flaunting that " MY BROTHERS' SINGING IS SO GOOD ....." when actually to tell you the truth i am almost puked when he opened his mouth. and oh when people tell you that your brother sang well they were just trying to be polite.... almost to the point of bootlicking cause all that they were saying was pure utter bull shit. and saying that i cant take critism ..... when the 202 girl told you that the performance sucked just accept it .

and pls missy dont come asserting that i am jealous of her marks if you do not have a complete understanding of the whole situation. and admiring her marks ??? which idiot are you plannig to fool??? yourself???? more like jealous of her marks and cursing her to die!!!!! and i cant blame you guys if you feel that i am curt or blunt cause i AM a straightforward and therfore likes to give a clear perspective on the situation unlike someone who just fabricates and concocts cock and bull stories just to appease the other party. sorry to disapoint. and coming back to the point where i cant blame you guys. its because i come from a more english educated school/family where everyone is like or even "more frank/extroverted" than me while majority of the class comes from the more introverted families and school where everyone keeps their thoughts and opinions to themselves .so in this sense NIETHER of us is WRONG. its just how we are brought up. and guys if you have any burning grudge that you have against me , pls do not , i repeat DO NOT hesitate to tell me . oh and if you are wondering whether i will retort or refute put it in a polite manner and there will be no problem it will just be a amiable and amicable way of solving problems than writing hate posts which i am sik of writing to people who are just so stubborn and refuse to recognise that different people have different personalities that have been groomed in different ways. so you have no right to criticize my way of thinking as that is the impression you gave me.

oh and to desiree, pls do not generalize cause you do not kno for sure that everyone has the same opinion of me like you have. cause the treatment to wards you from me is very special in a bad sense .i think you get what i mean. its just different to how i treat others .

next i am not as outrageous as you to get my oh so "loyal surpporters" to back me up as it is just ludicurous.lastly pls dont say that i am out like a crazy bonkery nutter that has nothing better to do than to ruin other people's relationship. if you can give examples and i am sure i will be able to clarify these so called shortcomings

2008-11-06T14:51:00.002+08:00

unfortunately i have to post this coz someone cant take simple critisim when they themselves are criticizing all day long

firstly, ".... criticize others NEGATIVELY..."
negative?????!!!!!!!!!!how preposterous is that??? how can critism ever be postive if it is positive it is called a COMPLIMENT not CRITISM... pls get that into your thick skull.

secondly, oh look, the pot calling the kettle black. pls realize that you are the jealous one always envying ONG CHIN NGEE's marks in the first semester of 2008???????? who is the one who is so secretive about your marks when chin ngee asks you ?????? so look who is the jealous one before opening that big explictly, ridiculously, specious mouth of yours and spewing all sorts of nonsense that will taint my reputation or defame me, miss.

thirdly, and look who is the childish one who can t take simple criticism . if i feel that you bury yourself in books it does mean i am right that is just my opinion so dont come pointing fingers at me and making a big hoo haa out of a trival matter cause it just shows you how pettish, puerile and choleric you are!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-05T22:40:00.003+08:00

okay firstly

my blog is one year old in october......................... yes i was lacking

anyways , shant beat around the bush

so

does any one want to go and see 007 QUANTUM OF SOLACE???

it is on tuesday(10/11/2008) so if any one wants just give me a call

oh and the venue is CATHAY CINELEISURE

cheers

leonard

2008-10-30T15:17:00.002+08:00

how ya doin bitches and bastards?!?!?!?!?!?!(i think i am a little eccentric.....)

anyways doing the quiz tagged from jocelyn

1. Do you have secrets?
not that i can recall of at this particular point in time...... but...... yeah i guess everyone must have their own dirty little secrets

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
not applicable

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
sometimes..... especially when the chinese teacher is not around and has lessons on that day

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
save it in a bank and earn loads of interests(except that now with the financial turmoil and all that ithink it would be safer to keep your cash with you. after all, cash is king)

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
who is my best friend again???????

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
both i guess....................

7. List out your 15 favourtie songs?
oh i have more than fifteen songs so i think i'll skip this one.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
be happy for her........ duh........... what else can you do force her to love you?????

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
yes i guess

10. What takes you down the fastest?
it what sense ??? physically, morally or emotionally

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years' time?
becoming a specialist doctor i hope................

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
my family (i cant point out who is the most important one

13. What kind of a person do you think the person who tagged you is.
timid, short(hehe, i am being cruel), shy, quiet . yeah thats abt all. oh oh and random.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
of course the former

15. What is your favourite colour?
i dont know...

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
how would i know i have never been i one before

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
like that will ever happen....................

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done.
if he or she appears repentful and sincere than yes... why not??? anyways, humans do make mistakes and should be forgiven if they have learnt their lesson

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
single for now

20. 5 people I have tagged:
yiliang
chun yun
ming li
desiree
shi ying

cheers

leonard

2008-10-28T14:07:00.004+08:00

i gotta gotta gotta gotta post thins know before i forget ....

there was something stupendiously funny that happened in dance today.....( yes i went back to nanhua today ..........................again)

so when desiree was placing the bamboo stick .................. guess what she did..............

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anyways you all have to click on the link on the bottom.... about it: his dance is almost stellar just that some parts are rigid... he had do leg hold turns, a la seconde turns, reverse leaps and many more gotta gotta watch it. here it is:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TT0DfNlcWdc&feature=related

cheers

leonard

2008-10-25T18:35:00.002+08:00

hey so the third post.

just to elaborate on the fourth point..... in summary do not let your parents expectations, your school's expectations , your country's expectations or even your expectations get in the way of what you think is meaningful in life. although education may be very impotant, it is not the most important to always score sky high all the time. that brings me to my fifth point.

my fith and final point is tell all you people in 201'08 that you should not be over conseinsious about what others think of you. all you have to remember that if you think doing something that you like is meaningful, go all out and strive for your dream. it does not have to be the best dream or the dream that can earn you the most money. the only thing that is important is that you are pleased and satisfied with what you are doing. it is not important if others think that it is a menial dream or ambition. it just has to be legitimate, logical and reasonable to YOU. yes YOU and not others coz others arent gonna live that dream for you, YOU are. so it does not matter what others think of you or what you are doing or getting , the only thing important is not to waste your life on something you dislike or detest. just think, would you like to have a life with money that is beyond your wildest imagination but you are always so grumpy, unfriendly, unsociable and unhappy(although it is unfortunate that this is the case in most developed countries) OR would you rather have a life with a modest and simpler life but filled with bliss, joy,family and friends. Its YOUR choice YOU HAVE ONE LIFE, LIVE IT.

in addition, i would also like to thank dance society espically the ones in my batch for helping me as well.

also, here are some people that have stood out to me in 201'08:

desiree: a responsible chairman. however tends to be selfish at times . has enormous potential. my remark:you have to learn to care more for the class and not for yourself a leader is a full time commitment.

chun yun: a charismatic person who is influencial. my remark: learn to except people more, it would benefit you greatly.

qi zhou: a egoistic person who can go far in life my remark: remember to keep humble

right. that is about it . in conclusion, it is a small world and i am sure we will meet again in the near future. not the class chalet i mean . i mean next time when we have grown up a little more i guess. i would also like to wish everyone of you the very best in your furture endeavours. here is a song the i have put into the blog . it is to wish you all all the best and to remind you not to give up in bleak situations.

cheers

leonard

ps. finally managed to finish blogging everything :)

2008-10-24T18:11:00.003+08:00

hey guys

just here to finish my post.....

anyways.....

where did i end of??? oh yes the social circle... well so as i was saying maybe i was to caught in my out deluded world being my so called"eccentric" self. but hey, no one is perfect, immaculate or impeccable as non of us is god. so why not look from a different perspective and be happy for these imperfections rather than disdaining or despising one another for these things. after all all of us are humans and no human is perfect.

fourthly, this is just a word of advice for all of you in na hua class 201'08. i have observed and i believe this would be the best time to spill the beans or bite the bullet. Education is a Journey, not a destination. i have seen and observed that 201, being the cream of the crop, is indeed a very competetive class academically . however, just a reminder. like i said education is a journey just a well as life being a journey. so there definitely will be ups and downs just like a rollar coaster when we reach a high we must remind our self the to remain modest, humble and tactful.at the same, we have to bear in mind that the sun does not shine on you all the time, so if we reach a low, we should not lose faith, be depressed or give up. we have the choice to look at things optimistically. in the sense, treat every failure as a stepping stone to sucess. we have tolearn how to pick ourselves up from the fall and slowly but steadly climb up the track just like a rollar coaster. there are many other things that can be spotted from this class such as the lack of teamwork and teamspirit. some of us being extremely individualistic or even belitting ourselves or one another . so i will nhot continue with this and move on to the next topic.

guess i ran out of time again. guess i have break it into 3 posts instead

cheers

leonard

2008-10-23T21:33:00.002+08:00

hey guys

its really so sad that i will be leaving nan hua and 201 when i move to NJC............

the school year has drawn to a close and this really shows that time really flies.anyways lets cut short all this nonsense...

firstly, i would like to thank all the teachers in nanhua for enriching me with the know;edge that i need so far and allowwing me to grow and blossom. special thanks have to be given to mrs tan, for being so patient with all my nonsense, mdm surin ms chian and ms lim and ms goh who are my science teachers who have helped me improve my sciences in all areas and mr JT, sort of coz he is my form teacher .

secondly , i would definitely have to thank all the 201 people who have been so surpportive and hospitable i have seen quite alot for the past two years. i have to apologize for my sometimes irrational beghaviour, provoking and agitating people for the past two years but you guys have really taught me how to become more humble, modest and down to earth from my once stuck up, big headed, egoistic, concieted self. i will also definitely continue to improve as i progress along. it is also very funny how everything sorts out in the end . enemys become friends , strangers become close friends and friends become closer friends . like what they say everything that comes to an end will be good if it is not good then it has not ended . it also really ironic how much time we spend quarelling and argueing over trival matters that sometimes we may lose sight of the big picture

thirdly, i regret not having enough time to mix around with the people outside of my clique(if i even have one) people like miao pei, li ying , tian li, jocelyn, simin, serene, shiying, lito , yiliang, zhi quan, hai xin, si beng ETC ETC and therefore did not get to know you too well. other reasons may also include me being overly preoccupied with work and studies that i negleted the other very important aspect of school life. enlarging your social circle .........................

i gtg will break this into 2 posts

cheers

leonard

2008-10-17T20:34:00.003+08:00

Got back EOY results

There were a few surprises( good and bad)

so here they are ( first part is the good , second part are the legitimatly improved subjects but still room for further improvements, the last part is the traumatising)

first part(in no particular order)

Science:physics:48/50
chemistry:28/30
biology:17/20

Math:part 1:29/40(not pleasing whatsoever)
part 2:51/60

Geography:part 1:13/15
part2:17/25(incredulously atrocious)
part 3:53/60

History:section A:15/15
section B:4/5
section C:14/20(substatial but not extrodinary)
section D:30/40

English:oral:28/40
paper 1:45/60
paper 2:37/50

Art:total:71/100

Second part

Chinese:paper 1:57.5/90(quite an significant improvement)
paper2:66/110(what can i say , the teacher is prejudiced)

Third part

Literature:Section A:23/30(sounds good right???)
Section B:10/20(oh but wait the idiotic buger does not seem to be able to mark
properly)

oh well whats done is done. no point crying over spilt milk.... although the milk spilt was not alot

cheers

leonard

2008-10-10T19:16:00.003+08:00

hi people

its been a long time since i have blogged
..i think....so anyways got tons to blog abt .........maybe..........

firstly....

EOY's are OVER

however.........

not particularly satisfied with some subjects which i have a preminision that would only be able to achieve a moderate score............

moving on, the world seems to be getting bleaker and bleaker but as the saying goes "the darkest hour is that before the dawn ". just today, i heard that singapore is going into reccession and this might not be the end of it . this credit crunch can even be described as a tumultous current that is snowballing and cannot be stopped. so what we can do start saving for the impending thunderstorm that is about to strike the world . for now it is clear that the thick dark ominous rainclouds have already gathered over head. we can expect retrenchment, pay cuts, losses etc . the business men, investors, practically every avenue of life is going to feel the effects of the epic crisis . the effects of the aftermath of this devastating and distructive storm is inconcievable. so save more and spend less.

another global issue that i feel is even more worrying than this credit crisis is global warming . although people from all walks of life, from different careers and what have you are coming up to say thing s like "stop global warming " it seems like words are speaking louder than actions . lieterally. campaigns are being launched, commercials reminding us to save electricity and water. arent all this not having any effects on our lives . i watched this movie about the earth and the root of this cause was due to the simple but crucial fact that there is a significant imbalance in the number iof people iin the world . lets put it in perspective.in the past when fossil fuels had not been dicovered, every single life form on earth depended on the sun for energy . for humans all our energy, we got from was from the sun directly or indirectly- heat to keep our selves warm , cotton from plants to make clothings, food from plants and animlas which ate plants etc etc so at this point in time the earth could only manage to sustain less than a billion people. then as time passed, we discovered these "ancient" pockets of sun light( a little oil from here and a little coal from there . ) however what we did not realise was that this accounted for the exponential growth of the human population . soon we reached out first billion. it then took a shorter time for us to get from our second billion to our third billion etc etc and thus today , we have 6 billion people. now, with an increase in population, it is an immutable fact that all the humans needs will increase as well. more food needed resulting in an increse in agriculture , more clothes needed, resulting in an increse in deforestation which also caters to other needs as well. more fossil fuels and other "ancient sunlight " had to be extracted to support us .

so, more agriculture = more methane ,
more burning of fossil fuels/coal and deforestation = more carbon dioxide and nitrous oxide as well as sulphur dioxide and carbon monoxide as well as all the ashes and dust and dirt
the list is seamless.

now, this therfore leads to an increase in green house gases causing the enhanced green house effect so on and so forth............eventually resulting in the warming of the earth called global warming.

so this leads back to the crux-too many people on earth
so the irony is that why singapore and many other developed countries are trying to increase their population when the whole main point of stopping global warming is to stop the increse of population. yes, you may say it is for the economy ageing population blah blah blah ............ but hey look at the bigger picture can our economy make as much money as what the earth is doing for us for a cost of 0 dollars........... the answer is no . so i rest my case . if you have any arguements that can rebuttle this than kindly leave a comment or two on the tagboard ( although the probability is NO).

from how i see it, there are only 2 ways for global warming to come to an end :
1.to let it continue and advance and let mother nature take its toll to remove "excess bagage"through a rise in sea level and food scarcity (more likely)

or

2. stop all burning of fossil fuels and convert the whole world to use only clean and renewable sources of energy(highly unlikely)

which ever the method, the earth will recover (one day).

but hey, its all a cycle . the human species will one day come to extinction- (that is irrefutable)
and a new life form will take over... so smiles

cheers

leonard

2008-09-11T21:29:00.002+08:00

heya guys

just a short post to tell y'all

y'all gotta watch MAMA MIA hahahahahahahassss!!!!!!!!

i mean like i have watched the musical that came to singapore and it cost my mother a hefty sum of money ...but it was worth it although i wasnt feeling well that day ... so i think that the movie should be nice as well ..........hehehehehe

cheers

2008-08-30T19:28:00.002+08:00

hey bitches and bastards.........................

okay that was random

anyways........

today was TEACHER"S DAY( go to chun yun's blog to see more)

so after the concert is school, i went back to my primary school to see my lovely teachers.

okay maybe it was also to eat the food there but you get my point

well thats the end of my post for today ................lolsssss

gtg bb

2008-08-21T22:01:00.004+08:00

sorry i have to vent out my anger or i will never sleep in peace

disclaimer: if your purpose in life is to provoke or agitate me may i kindly request that you do not read this or leave a tag

so what happened was that today, during the flag raising ceremony, i was talking to chua si beng about something that i forgot when that bloody bimbotic bitchy bootlicker came to disrupt us by asking us to read, so i took out my book and read it. after the flag raising ceremony. there was an announcement on the photo taking session. because i was busy reading my book as ADRIAN TAN instructed i did not quite catch what he was saying so i went to ask si beng when our session was. just so happens that mr liu gong kai was there and he told us to stop talking and read our books. so we immediately shut up and started reading. then that bloody bastard came and told me to stand atr the back after mr liu had already settled with us....

i mean i always knew you were a bootlicker but i did not know that you like mr liu so much that you have to suck up to him. i mean if you really wanted to ask some one to stand shouldnt you mind your own bees wax and handle your own class which has numerous people who are happily having their own conversations instead of just picking on me and making a big hoo hah out of it.

from the day you stepped into our class, i knew that we had gotten a regular right down bad bastard who does not have any idea on how to teach geography. firstly , when you teach you do not even refer to the textbook E.G.(teaching transportation and communication)class, pls turn to page XX. then he starts talking a whole bunch of jibberish and nonsence which nobody is even interested to hear. he digressess so much that i doubt he even realizes what he is teaching. Secondly, when there are tests, he informs us so late that he thinks that he is the only teacher teaching us. at the end of the lesson he says "okay i have finished the topic." wow i am so amazed that the information of the chapter is only on one page . and you did not even touch the work book . even some of your students from your form class tell me that you suck at teaching. and come on, grow up, you bring us to ridiculous websites and tell us irrelevant things and just to flaunt to us your so-called"handy gadgets" as if you are the only rich person in the world. excuse me, there are many other rich people in the world and not need to show to the whole world that they are rich rich rich. some one once said " only people that are desperate show off, people who are wealthy and wise remain humble"
after the first semester when ms noney took over, i was relieved that i did not have o see that bastard every geography lesson. ms norney is a fantastic teacher comapred to adrian tan. she gives notes organizes things and makes use of the textbook as well as workbook. so gald to hear that he is leaving at the end of the year ..

and whats more, he said that he dislikes my attitude. oh if you want me to change my attitude towards you than change yours towards mine. i come across to be a very forgiving person, but one that i will never make friends with are those that belittle people and do not say sorry for their mistakes. i will say sorry only if i feel i have done something wrong. like lets say , sometimes, i become quite blunt to especially towards desiree,liqing etc etc. but at least i say sorry if i feel that i ahev offende them right. fine maybe not to desiree because she is one that is hardcore and does not things to heart.she knows when i am joking and when i am really pissed off just like mdm yip she knows my character and that some times i say thong s i dont mean but at least i apologize.

so buger off bitch and dont come and threaten me with your pathetic bargaining power such as teling mrs viginia cheng. come one you are a lazy couch potato who does not know how to work. i know have flaws and try to correst them but some obnoxious and stuck up people like you will never learn..... thats your lost .. such a pity

2008-08-17T10:10:00.003+08:00

hey people

its been a long time since i have blogged .... i think
anyways nothing much really happened except that it was my BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!!!!! hoooorrrrraaaayyyy.
thanks JT and CN for those lovely gifts !!!! only you two remembered besides my family that is. so where did i celebrate ?????

JUMBO seafood restaraunt at EAST COAST!!! must have cost a ton..........XD
so we had sotong, black pepper crab, butter crab,chilli crab.....
and you what ??? the crabs were 2.2 kilos each omg omg omg
so thanks mom and every one who came.

next the COMMON TESTs
a total atrocity.......yeah so.....

firstly the history paper was like!$%^%^%&^#$%^&^%*&^*(*&()(%&^
1. not enough time
2.i left i question half done!!!!!( because of the first reson)
3.the SBQ was like shit mannnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!

secondly
the english paper
1.not enough time !!!
2.i overshot the summary by like 41 words . i mean $%$^ %&^%*!#DXAR#$
3. mr tan told us that many people got ZERO FOR WORD MEANING

lastly the chinese paper
1. i am not very good at chinese
2. i think i got a maximum mark of 33/55 markss!!!!$%^%&*&^*(!#%$!

so nvm
better forget baout them because the more you go through the more heart attacks you will get..

bb gtg

2008-07-29T19:31:00.002+08:00

i have been quite irritable these few days... esp if people purposesly try to provoke me. however, monday's gym was quite alrite considering that wo3 men2 gen1 lao3 shi1 wan2 chou4 because there were no seniors hahahahahahaha.... fine .... we still got punished in the end though... and my cough has not vanished yet hope it goes away soon....

and secondly the testsssssssssssss...... we are getting bobarded with waves after waves of tests. it compares to being in the ocean where continuous waves are pounding you and you have no chance to breathe at all. and the results of the recent history test was not satiafying at all considering that this was the lowest mark. the geo test was alrite considering that i could have gotten a little higher if i had elaborated a little more. i feel more and more lethargic everyday... must cut down stress, must cut down on stress

anyways nothing much today except that i could not really grasp everything cai yi fei was saying about everything and then he dumped the whole load of zuo ye excercises on us ....... nvm

i gtg now going to eat my SARPINO'S pizza

-bye-

2008-07-18T19:23:00.002+08:00

let me start off by saying that my last post was not supposed to tagged about Zhi Qi but in zhi quan

so the reason why i havent blogged for so long was due to the fact that i am freakin BUSY with dance saturdays and with tests every other day as well as the PW project and reflection with the physics chemistry geography tests coming up and the second most terrifying one which is the common test followed by the most petrifying one -EOY's

not particularly pleased with the recent history test after knowing that my mark is capped at 28/30 while i knew i could get much higher if i had more time. literature test was alrite .

nothin more to blog

so bb gotta finish the PW report now

2008-06-29T10:47:00.003+08:00

A quiz to be done firsrt. tagged by LIQING

1.the last person who tagged you
zhi qi

2.relationship
classmates

3. 5 impressions
bad - obstinate, vulgar, unfriendly at times, hardcore, procrestinates at times
good-friendly at times(very hard to think of anything else as she always leaves me with bad impressions)

4.memorable thing she did for me
i dont think she did anything good for me... sorry( maybe criticizing my weakness)

5.memorable word said
maybe "wet blanket" or "C.H.E.A.P"

6.becoming lover
dont make me vomit - i would rather marry mrs tan wei sien

7.if she becomes lover, improvements that he or she can make
like i said it is impossible for her to become my lover so invalid question(let her husband criticize her not me)

8.becoming enemy
much more likely than lover ( but i do not think that i would want to make enemys with her...)

9.reason, if she becomes enemy
i cant predict the future

10.most desired thing i would do for her
stop annoying her although i have cut down by 90% already

11.overall impression
not fantastic but not bad either

12.how do you think others will feel abt you
frankly i dont really care what others think abt me. i only care abt how i feel about myself. in short

13.the character that you love yourself
everything but more prominently out going, realistic and frank, very frank at times

14.character i hate myself
selfish and annoying at times (i am already improvin okay!!!!)

15.most idealistic person i wnat to be
LEONARD

16.for people how care and like me
thanks a million/terima kasih/ arigato / xie4 xie4 ni/nin
i hope that we can improve or maintain the good realationship we have(people pls think straight)

17.pass this to 10 people
1.chunyun
2.xinying
3.kengyan
4.haixin
5.zhi quan
6.kian wee
7.desiree
8.yating
9.chin ngee
10.jocelyn

18. who is 6 having a relatinship with
i think daphine from dance rite??

19.is 9 a male or female
female

20. if 7 and 10 are together will it be a good thing
i dont hink they are lesbians

21.how about 5 and 8
i think 8 has kenyan already what

22.what is 2 studying about
lindan or badminton duh..

23.when was the last time you had a chat with 3
yesterday in dance

24.is 4 single
i think so

25.talk something casually about no 1
lazya nd fickle and nice ( i think i am contadicting myself but nvm)

2008-06-19T18:24:00.002+08:00

hey guys

it like i have not posted for 1month. sorta.... (probably coz i am caught up with all this frustrating homework and oh i have decided not to do gong han and the bimbotic pulau semakau thing.- i mean use your common sense !!!do you think that the extremely lazy me adrian an will even bother trying to mark it and oh mdm noney or mdm poon.- they are already caught up with their own work to do and even if they did mark it it be a thorough look thru so yeah i would only be doing a pathetic powerpoint at MOST ) hehe

anyways here are some of the quick updates

-ponned dance on fri the 13th coz had to go for STP ( marina was nice though , with the exception of the freaking late hours.

-watched narnia with kenyan and chun yun ( but then she lied... firstly said CO but in actual fact she cleared her room...)

-wrecked myself because of the hmwk

- class BBQ today although it was quite the same BBq you always had (oh kenyan and qizhou are gay....)(me chun yun and xinying and liying are witness although i long knew they were) and the most irritating thing was somebody's brother he molested girls by hitting their backsides - i think he will make that a bad habit and go to jail for it::XXXXXXXXXX and gua1 gua1 jiao4 jiao4 like he was some sort of wang2 zi3 demanding everything (even desiree was pissed )( and that person did not even bother to take care of his younger brother and tell him what to do and what not to do. i mean like he should have some responsibility and tell his brother not to be naughty instead he went to play soccer ) . there were also many flies and there was a lack of drinks.... and the place was a little hard to get to . other than that it was quite alrite considering that it was ddesiree's first time...

gtg

still got to finish one history thing

2008-05-23T16:29:00.004+08:00

hello people

theres some bad news to tell y'all.
i wont be cracking any more jokes in class come the start of term 3.

tell you why

RECAP from what happened today.....

so in the moring we left for the PTC. during the PTC i met the ever-so bastard-looking nigwit( mr jonathan tan)

so he started of sayying that i have done well in my results blah blah... trying to buy face before he sprouts all the bull shit about me.

so , firstly, he continued by saying that my frankness is what makes the class dont do well!!!

erhemm

can you figure out how the 2 link with each other as i peersonally can figure out how!!!! oh and why i am frank is because i do not believe that bull-shitting or boot-licking will get you far in life. so instead of saying thta your lessons are boring and dry, you are trying to imply that i MUST say that your lessons are one of the most interesting lessons there are???

secondly he said that i must stop cracking jokes as this would make the class not pay attention???

puhlease.... if i dont crack the jokes you would be teaching a dead class.

so he became defensive and said that he didnt think so. so this is what i will do. i will stop crapping in class. then if even one person sleeps or puts his head down on the table, i will immediately report this and see who will get the last laugh. then lets see what nonsense he has left.

mr cai yi fei who was sitting beside mr bitchy jonathan was no better. he was trying to add insult to injury and said that in the middle of the lesson i would stand up and throw my rubbish. and futhermore said that this was "pan ni"(translation:rebellious) .

what has getting up and throwing rubbish during your lesson got to do with "pan ni"??? and what do you expect even throwing rubbish during your lesson to make myself awake and prevent me from dozing off is not allowed. then do you want me to ask you every time when i want to throw my rubbish to please you ??? or do you want me to put my germ infested tissue on my table and display it for you to see and wait till after classthen i can dispose of it??? wouldnt that be to evil as you would get sick very soon from breathing in all the germs and bacteria from my mucus???

and then mr jonathan continue by saying that some people in our class affected because of my jokes and have compained since??

to all the 201 bitches/ bastards/sluts who prefer to hide behing their mothers apron strings - if you have something that you would like to tell me pls do not start whinning in front of teachers saying " oh that leonard is affecting my studies! boo hooo!" step up and tell me straight in the face!!! these people you know who you are ! mr jonathan tan told me all about you!!!!

2008-05-16T18:57:00.003+08:00

alright got back my results ....

alright but there is definetley tons of improvements to be made especially to my geo and eng

legend: good/improved deproved

history:87.2%(hooorrraaaayyy)
math:85%(horrrrraaaaayyyy as well)
art:80.8% (surprising and good and definitely improved)
science:79.2%(still good although slightly deproved)
english:70%(improved but not good enough)
chinese:62%(yeeeesssss improved !!!! hoooorrraaayyyy)

literature:62.5%( how could i get this type of mark for literature although i must admit that her marking is very strict)
geography:68.7%(what type of crap mark is this deproved by sooo much i miss ms wong she is a hundred million trillion times better than that story teller mr adrian tan who can only tell stroies and digress further and further away and apparently can teach three entire topics in one lesson and stay only on one page for the whole chapter, for example" class turn to page 92" and then after he has said kinds of rubbish he suddenly sprouts out these words" okay class i have finished this topic lets go to the next one...." what a retarded a-hole. thus the cause of my deprovement.)

today was the general ability test and it was very tough... even mingli left 4 questions blank

cheers

2008-05-16T18:53:00.001+08:00

hey people

i have changed the song to this wonderfully blissful ballad

enjoy

leonard

2008-05-10T17:48:00.003+08:00

Got back most of my results ...
not too bad

will post them as soon as i get back report card...

nothing really to post except that i feel that teachers are getting on my nerves nowadays

firstly mr Adrian tan

then now Mr (Jonathan) tan

RE-ENACTMENT from the english test

(a scene in the classroom when he was sitting in one of our table giving the test paper to the guys only as the girls went to the hall during open space period)

when i got back my paper i saw on the top left hand corner that there was a big circle with a cross in it as i wrote' hello dad' instead of 'dear dad'. and beside it he put 'TF down'. Just then i remembered that i heard him say that he would not minus marks if we put hi or hello dad. so i went to confront him and told him that. then he LI ZHI QI ZHUANG and said that he knew and thus did not minus marks . when i showed him the paper he piaseh . But instead of giving me the mark he took back all the rest of the paper and marked TF down and minused a mrk from those that put HI or HELLO dad.

EXCUSE ME YOU FREAKING BASTARD!!!!!!!

you are a fickle-minded, obsessively biased attention seeker and no sense of being wrong!! if you are wrong just apologize dont put the blame on me and say" OH LEONARD YOU MADE SOME PEOPLE MINUS MARKS BECAUSE YOU DID THIS "

CORRECTION

you were the one who said that you will not minus marks and now you said that i sabotaged the rest. PLS think back what you did...

2008-05-04T16:56:00.002+08:00

havent blogged in a while coz i was busy with stuff( none of your beeswax anyways)

had NAPFA recently and i think i am going to get GOLD hahahahas first time i got it hehe. oh and LITO cheated by asking 4 retests from the kind-hearted mr paul ling.

anyways
it has been a long time since i had dance (note dance is not gym and i refuse to acknowledge gym as dance as it is obviously not i mean excuse me if i am offense but people who do gym(nastics) does not mean they can dance ...) okay ill stop digressing and come back so there has not been dance lately except for gym, which i hate cause the sec 3/4 seniors are having their exams...

oh and before that i almost forgot that there was a geography test although I was like haltering the class and they were literally pushing me to the classroom from the com lab i hate geo tests as i ont know what they are going to test on - more of application that memorization if you have realized.

so back to dance again we were really busy preparing for the ndp dance as it is coming in lets see in 3 MONTHS. the dance is quite nice i must say . But i hate the parts of shouting HA AND SHA as it is ridiculous if you get what i mean. i have not seen a dance with ha and sha.(it spoils the dance)( no offense).

gtg now

bye

cheers

2008-04-23T21:36:00.002+08:00

i am not wanting to blog now but i have to say this . firslty mr (adrian) tan suxxxxxxxxxxxx big time... i know you were (are) blurr but still pls how could you forget to remind us anout the test . we are not superman for goodness sake so pls i thought that there was not going to be a geo test but i was sadly msitaken. in fact this was one of the most unexpected test i have ever heard .... i thougth that mr (jonathan) tan was going to give us a test instead but i guess i had the first name wrong SIGH

nothing else to say (its short because i just wanted to say this.)

goodnight

2008-04-20T21:49:00.001+08:00

hey people or more like zq

i have changed the song to this lovely song

ryandan have beautiful voices unfortuanately i only have listened to this song so here it is and actually i have known this song since eons ago but just kept forgetting to put in on so haha finally remembered

2008-04-20T17:07:00.003+08:00

CONTINUED FROM PREVIOUS POST

so on the same topic of tests, the bio test is coming up and this just leaves the english test and the never-ending math tests which keep coming week after week... however why i am not too bothered about this is becoause i am used to it since mrs tan wei sien became our math teacher and her lessons are so boring i could COLLAPSE due to boredom/depression(*yawns*)

anyways shant continue any farther abt his .

i just realized that imeem has been acting up alittle bit i cant even play the song i want and going into their website just makes it worse. its like they are overloaded with people and just cant cope.... how sad.....

this friday WAS our sports day but unfortuanately (as always)

i missed it as i had to go to some weird STP which was absolutely horriffic with the exception of the provided food. i practically slept through the whole lecture . i mean it is as if they are insulting our intelligence coz they are reading every damn word on the powerpoint. now lets make it more simple for them why not they just send us the powerpint and we will read it ourselves instead of them reciting it in a monotone like a zombie. the professers even have weird names like ms tuti lim (and by the way her pronounciation and articulation and sentence structure is all wrong!!!!!!!!! and actually i dont give a damn about this stupid project i just want a certificate for my testimonial at the end of sec 4(like obviously ) and frankly speaking, i am sure that none of the nan hua teams will win . I'll bet on that coz nobody really gives a damn - esp. for my group. coz we had gotten a weirdo as our mentor- dr something and he is really weird and creepy.... for instance he can just walk away when we are having a disscusion about what to do and he does not even give a damn about our project not like mdm surins group who has two devoted mentors so you know what i am going to do ????

i am not going to include his name in our acknowledgements as he did not do a single thing further more, i wont even give my interest in this project you dont care why should i and my teamates we will just get it done and overwith to tell you the truth if the STP and the NDP practise were to clash i would not even give consideration to go fo the stupid programme coz at least the NDP gives me CCA points....

oh and another thing i volunteered to go for the STP because of the inportant things like how to write a sientific report which only me desiree and kian wee know while all the rest of the class mates dont.

okay there is othing left for me to blog so bye

cheers

2008-04-19T22:46:00.002+08:00

haha the previous post was the 50th post......................

i am so blurr

anws sooooooooooooooo sorry for not agging for a looooooooooooooonnnnnnnnngggggggggggg time because i sent my com for clean -up job:) got lots to blog about but i am not sure whether i can post all of it tonight i will give it my best shot.......

so first of all DANCE

we finally finished our NDP cheography.... haha (YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN HOW TERENCE THE JUNIOUR DANCED IT WAS TOTALLY HILARIOUS MAN.... ) :x

nothing much about that except the fact that we have to go back to school a bedok camp (whatever it is ) and marina bay for previews ... hrmphhhhhhhhhhhh

NEXT...

TESTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

the chinese test was such as a surpriseeeeee i got an A2 that is the highest so far but it was a borderline 70... but nvr mind at least that was a huge leap and i thought i flunked it ... thanks CN. haha i still cant believe that there is no geography test i mean last year ms wong was dumping test after test i think she passed her "virus"to mdm ELZA tan because she is giving pop quiz over tests over quizes... so talking about geography, he hasnt even given us a piece of homework since the start of this year.............. WOW so GREAT I BELIEVE THAT ALOT OF PEOPLE DONT EVEN REALIZED THIS .. haha . on the hand **** the art teacher what does she think we are machines is it one week and four assignments and still want to minus marks for jsut being late one day really i ahvent used this level of vulgarities but you ahve really crossed the line ms i thought that you were
alright at first BUT in the end you turned into a nasty bitch. i rushed all week in my weakened state because i was sick to finish your hmwk and even negleted other subjects and you still want to minus marks ?????

**** you woman.

continue the rest tomorrow.

i am tired

cheers

2008-04-11T21:11:00.003+08:00

yo people, its been like eons since i have updated

so on wednesday i missed dance to go to pulau semakau ... it was beautiful, the sea breeze the wind and the company... so firstly the ship ride was very nice especially coz we were on an executive yacht. unfortunately chun yun did not com and we could gossip for most of the time but instead she fell ill you see how life can be at times and so when we arrived 202 went to take the tour around the landfill and sightsee the panoramic and breath-taking view of the ocean and the island. and for those who thinks that it is worthless, erhrm excuse it is a one in a life time experince and not everyone can have a chance to see a landfill exspecially since it is the one and only lanfill in s'pore. and amazingly theres no smell at all. i wish there could be more trips organized like this as it was amazing experience.

update the rest later...

2008-03-28T20:56:00.003+08:00

tis been five days since i've last posted . cause ...

there's too amny projects dumped all at the same time . you know i feel its ridiculous that the teachers dont come together and disuss when each project should be given instead of all the projects at one time...

oh and EL lessons are getting more and more boring with the exception that we will be doing a video journal (hope that at least this will be interesting cause the past few lessons its been such a bore considering that the special"EFFECTS" of mrs TANS lessons which are practically dead and you why i sometimes burst into random laughter during lessons... coz when i put my head on the table and turn towards the teacher its hysterically funny to think that the teacher is being ignored by everyone and she is talking to the wall .....

anws we learned half the NDP moves and will continue the rest nxt week (*yawns in boredom*) coz the sec 1's have come we have to play those boring and time wasting games where we et pumped for no ryhme or reason...

why not use this valuable time to practise/learn the steps so that we do not have to come back so often during june (which are holidays ) and practise (oh ya just learned that it will be conducted every friday from 9 TO 5 and saturdays from2.30 to 7p.m evry week)*laments continuously* and you know what is the most frustrating thing... i cant go on holidays or at least with some classmates to some brisbane australia trip

*bottom line* i am stuck in singapore .......................... and that sucks ......................... at least i can see some people i know in those days... andddddddddd

get CCA points!!!!!!!!!!

oh and did i tell you that hao ting or whatever my juniors name is ... he is a fast kearner and he looks like a primary four student noo offense ya actually in fact that is a good thing coz you can retain that cute look instead of having this gangster look rite.

rite going to listen to music and watch tv

seeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2008-03-16T12:07:00.003+08:00

actually i do not want to post but....

i just want to say that whoever created the wizlearn freaking shit ass website is an a-hole with no brains at all. they think we are what huh IT freaks ezit what shit lecture folder and stupid upload and download . i mean like what is wrong with the previous website huh . pls luh stop changing. i searched for the timetable for more than hour and i still have not found it you see how ridiculous it is??